Pain

I am tired of being taken for granted. I feel so lonely yet used. I finally made a decision to forgive hiS university's and lies. My financE mean. It was killing me and very toxic not to release it. You think things are good and here we go again. I have swept so many things under the rug because I chose to truly forgive and live him and walk by faith not by sight. I even chose to fight my negative thoughts or even my

Intuition with positive things about him. Seeing him how in the light i need him to be in. Yet he is at it gain and honestly i don't think he ever left this feels alone. I am so tired and hurt. How can you Move forward when the person you are with keeps going backwards an staking you or keeping you in that chapter you chose to let go and forgive. I have 3 beautiful children with him nd i am that you pray for me as i go through and share with me some encouragement so that i don't continue to have mymy children feel the jury or know something is wrong with mommy. It suckss that theg have been on this emotional rollercoster with me. I stayed not because of my children but because I truly love him. H e is my first and only and I feel sometimes stuck and punished for not waiting until marriage.
You know I am always encouraging others of the lords goodness when things are good or bad in my life. I am just in need of prayer and endorsements. Thank You and God Bless You all

Infidelitys not university

Love not live him

I prayed for you and your children. The Lord is your shepherd and he will lead you and show you the way. His love is abundant and will uphold you through this difficult time.

Lord Jesus, bless childofking, husband and their childrens. remove every negative stuff from their lives, let you be glorified in their thoughts, action, and day today life, Amen

Father God I thank you for my sister child....for sending the Comforter to ease her suffering.......for protecting
her and making her strong......for holding her close and keeping her safe.....for keeping her
mind focused on You Father God...I thank you in Jesus' name.....amen...

Dear sister....I have lived the life you discribed....and im here for you....pm me anytime....
and I will be happy to help....peace and love my girl......jo

I am praying for you and your family.

ChildofKing,

You tugged my heartstrings, now I hope to tug yours; but the sort of circumstance you are in, I fear I will ultimately fail. I say this because often in these dark places, we hear what we want to hear; see what we want to see. We only become aware of another way, or see reality for what it is when we are ready. You are choosing to see his positive, in lieu of the negative...I get that, but is that really where the light should be shining. I understand all too well this pain you are in; it is a lonely business isn't it.

You are loving him, that is obvious, and quite a love it is. To hang in there when this sort of pain ravages you, I understand personally and deeply. You are not being punished for not waiting for marriage-- your heart cries out for an answer, and is looking for a reason for this injustice. In a way, it gives you a sense of control to blame yourself in one way or another.

As I said, you are loving him, yes. But are you loving yourself. If you are, then you have a giant heart. If not, then I ask you to consider if not, why you are not. Would you let one of your children be put through something like this if you had the power to stop it--the obvious answer is no. It is sometimes easier to love others more than ourselves. The fact is, if we don't love ourselves, sometimes it can be readily seen in the amount of abuse we will endure. I speak from experience. If you love yourself and let God love you first, you might not give this abusive behavior as much grace as you have. This may only become clear to you in time, if it is at all correct. I could be way off.

I hope whatever you are looking for in the way of peace finds you quickly. I will pray very hard that this pain you are in culminates into a choice that will help you and your children, and that you see clearly and quickly what is best for all hearts involved. Whatever that choice may be, however hard it may be.

I pray for your peace, sister. Whether you know it or not, endurance you have down pat.

-John

Thank You for your reply of concern and care. Most importantly thank you for your prayers

Thank you So much for taking the time out to respond and pray for me. I appreciate it.

Thank you So much for your prayers. I appreciate it.

Thank you So much for your prayers. I appreciate it

Thank you So much for your prayers. I appreciate it so much