Killing Myself

I have literally been weird my whole entire life. I don't do what everyone else is doing. From what it sounds like, you don't either, but you know what, there is something really beautiful about that. Not being normal, not blending in. It's an awesome thing. Don't fight it Molly, just go with it. The goal is not to find friends who are like you, rather to find friends who don't care if you're weird, normal, crazy....


I just realized our names are similar You're Molly and i'm Holly. If that doesn't mean we're meant to be friends then i don't know what does!
I'm going to message you and we can be weird together

Both names rhyme with Jolly. Weird.

I have often wondered why certain people suffer from depression so much and others rarely get depressed. From the time that I was a kid, I could distinguish those who just never seem to fit in and those who were as it seems "born to be popular." Are some of us born with a lack of something and others born with an abundance of something that causes this? Face it, some people just have it and others don't. I knew from my youth who the gifted athletes were and who were not. Is it the same mentally? Some of us are just born with an abundance of charisma and confidence that makes us popular and others are not? Why is it that some people are instantly popular in a crowd and others are not no matter how hard they try to be?

Everything from our childhood sticks with us overtime. If the slightest thing happened verbally or non verbally that caused our confidence to be shut down or something similar, we turn out to be like that 10 and 20 and 30 years later. And so forth. Our environment shapes our thoughts and behaviors, For better or worse.

You are not weird, you are Gods masterpiece. God doesn't make mistakes.

You are the way you are because that's the way God made you.

You might look at yourself like that, but when God looks at you, well, His hearth overflows with love and His is very, very proud of you.

And actually, there is nothing that can keep you out of heaven. No depth or height, no device, nor life or death. Your free pass has already been sealed, signed and delivered. In Christ's blood, by Christ Himself.

Romans 10:9 If you declare with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

The Bible says that we are “sealed” with the Holy Spirit at the moment of our salvation with the Lord and that nothing can break this seal, no matter how many bad and evil sins a person may commit after getting saved.

Remember Molly, friends will come and go. People will break your heart daily. But Jesus is your friend forever and will never break your heart.

So we are simply products of our childhood and our environment?

Childhood is a possibility. It depends on the circumstances and how severe it can be, which can lead to damage one mentally. Environmental is definite, especially if it's more recent.

sometimes I think God singles out the ones who are rejected by society to be His. At least looking back at the replies it would seem that most of us are "different" in some way. I certainly consider myself different from the crowd. It doesn't have to be a bad thing.

Father, please shower Molly with your blessings, hold her in your arms and enable her to feel how totally loved she is. Be near her always and blot out all negative feelings placed in her mind by the enemy. Father I pray for the healing of Molly's mind, rest your loving hands on her and take away the pain, fill her heart with the love she has from everyone here in this community. In Jesus' precious name I ask. Amen.

Killing yourself? absolutely not that is forbidden you are far to loved and treasured by not only people on here but by God I simply cannot allow that. Do you have any idea how treasured you are? Not just by me but by God? I know there are people on here who are less Christian and more of the world but there are people like me who love you because God loves you, not just me everyone who posted in this request obviously cares about you.

I would take a bullet for you and do you know why? because you are his child and he adores you just for you so if you are such a treasure to him then you are to me and I cannot allow his child to take her own life and never get to be with him again.
Believe me you are loved and loved far more than you can ever imagine so im serious if you even try to take your life i'm going to be very depressed. I lost a person to suicide that I loved and tried to help before and I don't think my heart can take that again

Don't kill yourself. Yes, life is tough and it seems like nobody cares, but nothing is as bad as self-murder once you cross over to the other side. I'm sure whatever pain you feel now is nothing compared to an eternity in the bad place.

Contemplating Suicide?

Praying for you.

You're in good hands now Molly!! Holly is like ....the mentor for our off center friends!

Drug and alcohol abusers are more likely to follow in the footsteps of their parents. So yes. A lot of it does. I'm speaking from first hand experience. Now I've never fell into that trap because I saw the effects, but my self esteem and my confidence has been shot from growing up in that environment. To this very second as I'm typing this message. Whether we want to admit it or not, everything stems from it.

your not alone,I don't like to drink alchol either,Lord,Jesus,please let Molly see your presence,and help her see that life is such a beautiful and magical thing,and worth living,in Jesus name,Amen.

umm no offense my friend but I am living proof this is not always the case

Besides normal people are boring we weirdo's are what make the world awesome!

​amen and ditto!! lol

God made no mistake when He made you just as you are and you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Embrace being different......if we were all the same, what a boring place this would be!!! I know how you feel because years ago I felt like ending things-and sadly made a few attempts......and thank my God above that i did not succeed!! His love is all we need. His acceptance is all we need. Yes, it's nice to feel accepted by our peers, but at what cost......to change so that we are more like them? No! I just want you to know, that God knows where you are in life right now....and when things get tough for us, He wants us to draw closer to Him......satan is a deciever..........everything bad comes from him.......all things good come from Christ........the devil will tell you all of the bad things to make you feel bad and sad and want to die.......that is not of God! You are loved......probably more than you realize....don't do anything to harm yourself.....posting on here is reaching out for help......and that is good! please......pray and seek God...........I'm praying for you now. God bless ~~~

Molly...my dear and precious sister...most beloved of your Father...

it's so hard to persevere in the face of life's hardships.

you are not alone, little one.
we are here for you, and most importantly, the Lord Jesus has never, and will never leave you.

i was driving home from the doc's this afternoon with the same sort of trouble persevering,
and God in His infinite grace had this song play on the radio.

"Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive?
I won't keep searching for answers that aren't here to find

All I know is I'm not Home yet, this is not where I belong.
take this world and give me Jesus, this is not where I belong" (Building 429)

you're not Home, yet, sweetheart.
things will seem a bit weird here, because we're pilgrims...sojourners...'tourists'. ( )

but we have God's ultimate and unrelenting Promise to care for us here, and take us Home one Day.
idk why His timing isn't ours, but His is Best.

Abba, we come to You with and for our sweet sister Molly.
You know her struggles, her heartbreak. You count each tear and place them in Your bottle.
You sent the Lord Jesus to suffer for her, and because He did He is her Perfect High Priest.
Thank You that He is, at this very moment and each moment of her life,
interceding for her, knowing what it's like to be rejected and misunderstood.
we add our prayers to His, asking they be perfected by Your Spirit.
remind our Molly that she is loved everlastingly, and that You are her glory and the lifter of her head.
give her endurance, Abba, and strengthen and encourage her,
for Jesus' sake, amen.

Molly...you are loved. you are loved. you are loved.
ellie

Molly come on line soon Im worried

I'm so sorry, it has taken me a while to respond because I have been reading all the posts. Thank you so much to everyone who posted and/or sent me a message. I feel much better now because of your lovely prayers and my personal time with the Lord. I have decided not to do anything and just hope and pray that I can be strong in the future to never think about it again. I would love to be friends with all of you, I know this is something I need. Thank you all again, I can't say that enough