Prayer

Over the last few days I have been feeling very distant from God and I feel like my crying out to him is not really doing anything. I have also been feeling oppression and a lot of sadness. Both over my sin, and over who I am as a person, as well as noticing a lot of different things in my heart that I am not satisfied with. I am also growing tired a lot when I am sitting and reading the bible, kind of feeling overwhelmed by it again and just feeling like I am not hearing God's will for my life. I feel like he doesn't hear me, because I have been praying for years to understand where he wants me to go with my life but I never have been given an answer that will stick with me. I have also been hinted at that maybe my heart is closed to what he wants to do in me, but I feel completely wretched to the point where I have to wait on him for absolutely everything and I just am at a place of great anxiety because it is new to me, and also I feel like he doesn't care. I know that sounds messed up but that's how I feel right now and it is leaking into every other aspect of my life.
I also feel that I have burned every bridge that God never wanted me to be on, and the factor that I have to wait for a door to open for me, and that the insight I am about to gather is not from me but him, overwhelms me.

I feel like a stupid sheep because in a lot of ways, he has delivered....and the fact that he is slowly delivering me out of this part of my life just overwhelms me and makes me feel extremely anxious. I am also experiencing a lot of oppression and conflict from my environment and it is annoys me and makes me feel completely isolated.


Please pray for me that I will get back to the good place with God and that this anxiety would leave me.

Thanks.

Lord Jesus, give your peace to blueorchildjd and help as him, Lord Jesus be the lamp to his feet , Amen

It's good to know that we are all not alone.
thank you for sharing with me it gave me warmth in my heart

I feel like a little baby clinging to him lol.
Never thought that would ever be me, but it is now.

one of my favorites...

Ps. 131
O LORD, my heart is not proud, nor my eyes haughty;
Nor do I involve myself in great matters,
Or in things too difficult for me. Surely I have composed and quieted my soul;
Like a weaned child rests against his mother,
My soul is like a weaned child within me.

O Israel, hope in the LORD
From this time forth and forever.

I think God wants us to get to the place where we rely only on Him and sometimes that empty I am not doing anything or enough kind of kicks in and I know I have felt helpless and useless at times. But God has put each one of us right where we can do the most good.

Just keep reading His word as He can continue to talk to us and keep praying even if it does not feel like your prayers go higher than the ceiling. As God has promised to be with us until the end of the world and He is with us no matter how we feel. Feelings are just that feelings it does not mean that God is not faithful to us as He is always dependable and faithful. We are the ones that walk away.

Father

I pray for Blue that you would help her with this situation that has her feeling as she does. Please send Your angels to be there with her and to fight against any opposition that might be trying to make her feel You are not with her. Draw her close to You and help her to build her faith and trust in Your faithfulness toward us. You have promised if we come to You that we will not be cast out or away from You. Help build her confidence in You and to learn to lean on Your arms of love and give her peace. Help her to rest assured that You have forgiven her for her past, present and future sins that Jesus has paid the price in full and You have promised to remember our sins no more. Thank You for helping her I pray in Jesus Name Amen.

Amen to all of the above. Sounds like you're right where you ought to be. There's no coincidences with God and the righteous person's steps are ordered by The Lord.
The anxiety comes when we let go of our own autonomy. We're born knowing only autonomy - but like John the Baptist said: He must increase and we must decrease - all of Him and nothing of us. Jesus said, Without Me, you can do Nothing.
It's not easy to let go the rule over how our days go. The world can never understand letting go of their own will and thoughts and giving it to some invisible Entity. We're built that way, until we get to the point where you and many of us are.
But the posts before mine say it all about the need to know that He wants you close to Him because Love is all He feels and intends with you. The Bridegroom is calling His beloved; His Bride closer and closer. There's no safer place on earth to be but as close to our Bridegroom as we can be - by faith that He loves us and works ALL things together for the good - we take on His Name as His Bride and when two are joined together as One, they become alike. That's His purpose for you, His Beloved.
I say Amen again to all of the posts above, in Jesus Name! and am smiling to be in the company of the 'wise virgins' that are waiting with their lamps full, wicks trimmed and getting our supply of oil made sufficient unto That Day.

A friend let me in on a guaranteed way for the 'stubborn' prayer to be answered. Answers to the important kind of prayers that might be our personal guiding star. She said to do these things:
1. Clear the pathway. Fear the Lord and clear your heart of all things including the worry and the fear you are moving away from God. Fear Him - with a single command all things were created and with a single command all things could depart.
2. Exercise patience. Let God work on His own time.
3. Be alert to pressures. All this "have to right now" junk and worldly pressures are smoke and mirrors.
4. Persist in your prayers. God can't be forced to answer, tho sometimes He might answer just out of irritation as a bible story reminds us.
5. Rest in God's promise. There are many promises made to us. Count on them all to be true.
6. Wait for His peace.

Lord God of Israel, thank You for hearing my prayer and thank You so much for this emerald in the finest of water. I pray you give her direction she seeks and clear her mind. In Christ's name