Hello everyone thanks again for hearing me out while I ask for prayer. One thing that is hard for me to do is ask for prayer, I don't like it because all my life I was basically brought up hiding all my problems by pushing them down and ignoring them. I don't want those around me to think I'm complaining or trying to make it seem like my life is so difficult. I am so blessed compared to so many people out there so I can't complain. I asked for prayer for my mom a while back now it seems I'm the one who needs it to. I have some close loved ones (both friends and family) who are struggling and I can't seem to do anything about it. Their lives are falling apart and it is rather scary, I fear for them and feel useless. Of course I know sharing God with them is the most important and most helpful thing I could ever do, I am newly saved and a born again believer just this year tho. There is so much knowledge that I still need to gain about God so I can properly share with others to help them. So first I pray I get the knowledge I need to grow in the faith. Another thing that is very difficult for me to talk about is that mentally I am not okay. I was never actually diagnosed with any particular illness/disorder (so on so forth) all my life tho I have never been mentally clear. I have always lived in constant fear and paranoia, not being able to trust anyone which in turn gives me extreme social anxiety. I have horrible intrusive thoughts, delusions and some more tormenting symptoms that I go through daily. I just prefer not to go into a hospital having pills shoved into my face for the rest of my life to deal with this. I just hope to be able to live out of fear, paranoia and my mind one day so in turn I can let the light of Jesus shine through me to be able to help others. Please pray that even if I can't help those who need help right away that God will be with them until I can get my act together, that I can help them the best I can until then. Please pray that God can and will use me and I can continue strong in my walk with Him. I put myself in Jesus's hands and you as well. If you have a prayer request or need someone to talk to I am here for you. ~ ♥ JMO