I'm in a long distance relationship with my girlfriend of 7 years. We've never met in real life, and have only communicated through text, Skype, mail, and email. It has been great except for this past year. In March she had sex with another man, and since then has regretted it but has tried to end this relationship several times. I know she's the one that God gave me. We're both christians, but she's just been hanging with the wrong crowd and doing things she shouldn't be doing. She hardly texts me anymore unless I try to contact her several times in a row. She's become very stubborn and cynical, and I just can't take it. She lives several states away, and I'm planning on driving up to see her in a week and a half. My parents don't know yet though, and I'm very worried about what my mom has to say about it. While I'm planning on this, I'm also going through the stress of finding a job since I'm out of college now. There's also the stress of having to drive up there, and have a plan for all of it. I'm stressed to the max about finding a job, making this relationship work, about my parents, and my girlfriend's parents. For a couple days now, I just find myself in a dark pit where my heart physically and emotionally aches to the point I can't take it anymore. I've cried I don't know how many times, and I'm crying while typing this out. My dad kind of knows about the relationship, but hasn't said much about it. One of my brother knows, but not many more of my family knows or they have their own suspicions. I've never felt this unimaginable pain in my heart and body before, and it's killing me inside to the point I can hardly function in life. I really need prayer so that I can feel better and this relationship last...and also find a job...I'm at my lowest point in my life now.
I typed this up before hand, and right now my heart is still physically aching from all of this. I'm scared, stressed, and lonely feeling in my heart and mind.
I typed this up before hand, and right now my heart is still physically aching from all of this. I'm scared, stressed, and lonely feeling in my heart and mind.