I Really hate my life!

I am really hating my life. I pray and it seems that things continually get worse. In 2010 I lost my job of six years over the inability to take the flu shot because I was too sick. My physician said I could take the flu shot 10 days after my antibiotics but they refused to abide by this. Since then I have not been able to obtain a permanent good paying job. I lost my home home, car, and kids once and on the verge of losing the home I have now with no place to go. It took me nearly 2 years to get a temporary job which didn't last.

When I see a light at the end of the tunnel, it turns out to be a freight train! I am continually turned down for employment despite my Bachelors in Health Care Administration and my previous experience and skills; the answer is still the same. I found out the other day that the hospital that fired me over the flu shot had black listed me. I am a hard worker and really need a job! If I don't find one soon that pays (like in the next couple of weeks), I'll be homeless with my husband and my daughter.

The state of Ohio even stated that I was unjustly terminated but nobody will talk to me or even help me. One lawyer charged me $75.00 and told me to beg for my job back. Another lawyer charged me $400.00 (which I had to borrow) and ran the statute of limitations out then said "there's nothing I can do" then ended up with a posh new office closer to this hospital that fired me. After the fact, he admitted that he used to work in this facility.

Four years later I am still having significant trouble finding work. Today, I got turned down for yet another job, making it approximately 1300 jobs that I applied to since 2010.

Some people tell me that I must have been horrible in my past life. I don't know about that, but all I know is I have to file bankruptcy AND still got an eviction notice Saturday. They are giving us till the end of the month to get the rent or we are out. Yeah, I hate my life!

I do have a supportive family and have been blessed so much with incredible kids and husband, but I can't keep borrowing money from my family and kids or expect them to pay our bills; they are tapped out. My son lives in another state and just bought us a car to help with our financial problem, although that helped some, it still doesn't bring us to the surface.

Please pray for a miracle that I get a job, the money to take my family and myself back to Australia or a lawyer who will fight for me.

Thank you for listening. Have a blessed day!
LED64

Father God, I know You are faithful. I know You will meet our Sister LED64's needs. I pray the doors open for her now in the name of Jesus Christ.

"Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit," says the Lord.

Praise God, I am in agreement with you, Sister that God will make a way.

Do you think the Lord is shutting doors where you live? Have you been praying for him to use you? Pray he will put you at the job where you can be used of him, then it will be smoother for you. Lord thank you for opening just the right doors, in Jesus name, amen

God help our unbeliefs and help our sister, lead her out of trouble. amen

thank you Lord Jesus for the life of LED64, she wants to live a worthy life for you, free from this worriness. please grant her a Job, according to your will, so that she always remain thankful to you and your works in her life, Amen

I pray you find happiness within your inner self and remember God is with you through all that your going through. Don't allow the negative worldly things to steel your joy as the joy of the Lord is your strength.

I'm so sorry to hear this,you are in my prayers,in Lord,Jesus name,Amen.

Dear Jesus, I pray for Led that she will feel at peace, Lord I pray for answers to be reviled in your timing. I pray for courage and strength. Open doors for her and keep her close to you in Jesus name amen

Jesus is near to the broken hearted. I assure you that he loves you and wants to take the pain you feel away. I pray in the name of Jesus for LED64, please give her your peace father. In Jesus name, amen!

John 12:25 Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.

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This world hates you, and for one good reason - you're His and it's not. So don't desire to be comfy with it. But you do need to eat, you do need a roof over your heads. Recently I was meditating on the verse about not worrying, doesn't God feed the birds? What does that mean? In this world food requires money, money a job. But there are sooo many these days with neither - so what are they really supposed to do, go pick bugs out of plants and seeds off the ground like the birds? I mean, you could survive on that but is it really an answer. Perhaps we're supposed to show faith and go pick the bugs and seeds, then as we thank God for them they'll turn into human food. I don't know. All I know is this is a huge and growing problem. And it's not going to get better.

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Father God thank You that You have provided a roof and food for me, thank You for those like Led64 who remind me of the blessing I have from You despite the world hating me - and going out of it's way every day to prove it. When your side dishes are plates of crap it's easy to loose focus on the Main Course. Thank You Lord for humbling me to see that. And I pray Led64 see that as well. Send her, and her family, angels Lord, to bear them up and provide ministry to their souls. May even more occupy and do battle with the enemy, to hold back and stop these assaults from the world and it's rulers. Holy Spirit pour out upon them and this situation, push back the enemy and open to them a door to receiving Your provisions. Lord you have work for Her, lead her to that so she may work for Your glory against the world that hates us - and You. Lord You said that in perseverance we overcome the world - let the world not overcome us as we persevere. Protect us, lead us, and provide for us Lord. We ask in faith for food and a roof for Led64, just as the birds have faith that You'll provide the bugs and seed. In Jesus' Name we intercede here Lord, and ask Your intercession as well. Amen

Thank you for sharing your post. I can RELATE!!! I began following the Lord in 2009. I was receiving my PHD in clinical psychology. But at that time I gave my degree to HIM because I became confused in how to practice in the United States with my faith, against all of the rules, healthcare changes, requirements, regulations and with having an active license. Working as a counselor became impossible because I had no support, no church, and was seeing clients with deep spiritual needs. I had to quit it all because I was EXHAUSTED. I walked away from a private practice, and health clinic. At the time I thought it was all the devil's doing and I still believe it is, but God is saving me out of it. I went to Hawaii and worked with traumatized girls and saw miracles and how God could use me, but in that process I had to let my license expire, filed bankruptcy, and got an eviction. After Hawaii I thought i heard God calling me to another country, but I was not sure.....This is where I realized that in the KINGDOM HE provides, and the world usually spits you out. We are not of the world, but on a KINGDOM system. This is where I realized the U.S. was spitting me out (like Jonah).

I was not hearing right so I went back to the U.S. and got a second eviction and in more financial problems. Well, I started listening and now I am in China and working as a professor, learning Chinese. The challenges are different, but now I just try to hear His voice and follow as necessary. Now, I do not think I will ever have what others deem as a 'successful' career in America because of all of the financial issues and two evictions which will mark my background check, but God showed me that what is important in the kingdom is where I need to be. He led me to a job wth a free apartment, on campus, and which is safe. Besides, I need to have a heart for the people, and lost my heart for American issues and problems because of how I was treated and how many told me I was not blessed because of all the problems I was having in America, and that if I was blessed I was suppose to be in a position of power (after all my experiences, etc). Well in God's Kingdom, we are called to serve, not necessarily be at the TOP of the food chain or have all these physical blessings. NOw I live on two suitcases, and GO when God tells me to GO.

When I returned back to the U.S. I kept applying for post doc jobs and jobs in healthcare, and saw evil and destruction in everyone's eyes. The healthcare system has also sold their soul and is alot about money. If you are anything like me, you want a great job, and want to use the gifts and talents you were trained to do. Well finally I gave up and said where can I use my gifts and talents in the right place? I found out that God's plans are higher, and that he uses the GIFTS and TALENTS in places he sees fit. I have gift for teaching students, healing, and encouraging gifts, and I see that those are the things he uses to open doors. For me, God has drawn me out to different places, and some happen to be in healthcare. I see now why God blocked it all. When I read your story, it is similar to my last two years. It is hard to find the right job in the right place, but I realize the evictions are God's blocking me out of bad situations. In a way God had to kick me out because I have a tendency to be too faithful to a place or a job. I do not like having debt, and walking away from it, but I know that God had a purpose in it all and although I do not yet see it, I know that the wrong doors close and that you kick open the RIGHT DOOR FAST. ps..... I believe that God was getting me in the right place and it was in another country. Now he has made it almost impossible without a miracle for it to happen. This is called the VERY NARROW PATH. I will keep you in prayer!!!!!

In agreement in prayer for LED. There's only one 'entity' that wants us dead before HE, our God does. Don't comply with that depressor.


Sister OnThisRock ~ Bless you for sharing what you have. Can relate in so many ways and feel honored to put you on my Missionary prayer list. Bless you indeed.
Thank you for reaching out to others here as well & for this long.

Sister, I just re-read something. Maybe you are suppose to get back to Australia. This is how God shut doors for me. He got me out of the U.S.

THank you. He move me alot. Any prayers would help! Especially for many angels surrounding me.

I want to thank you all for your wonderful kind words of support and especially for your stories and prayers! I had trouble getting through them all due to the tears that flowed as a result of your generous outpouring!

I am from the US and went to Australia where I met my husband. After meeting him in 2010, I felt drawn there because when staying here was in my mind, doors SLAMMED in my face! When I planned on going over there to marry my husband and start my new life there, God provided the means down to the penny. We married there, but we had to come back here because of my daughter who was 15 at the time. Their immigration policy would not allow her to be part of the visa application unless she was there at the time of the lodging.

My husband misses Australia at times and I had been feeling like I want to go home; I do miss our church family and the community where we lived. My family is here though, and he has no family there anymore. Our funds are in the red and flights back are so expensive, not to mention the visa.

I started feeling less and less anxious about going back and to the point now of not really missing anything. I think it's mostly because I feel myself dying inside because of everything that keeps happening. I still pray even though they seem empty.

Anyway, that's where things stand. What does he want from me? No money to keep a roof over our heads or food on the table without skipping out on paying the electric, phone, or other necessary bills, OR the money to get back to Australia.

Thank you everyone for sharing! It really meant so very much to me!