Addiction, antipsychotics, everything is spiralling downhill

I am out of control, I am depleted and destroyed, the doctors have forced me to take drugs for schizophrenia, I am more unstable on the drugs and more damaged now than before, and because of all this I am a porn addict and quitting is impossible basically because of the drugs. I am tired, I wanted to live a life that honors God but sometimes it feels like God is rejecting me and is destroying me, I am tired of the constant tribulations. I have backslidden to pornography and videogames, I am no longer reading books because I acquired ADHD from the drugs as well, and I am unable to keep commitments and thrive. I feel unclean, and hopeless in some ways. I am waiting for God and i am sinning in the midst of it, my dignity integrity and love are trodden upon, and nothing appears to be coming my way. I want to return to faith because basically my faith got destroyed over the last three years. i stayed steadfast in the Lord growing in ways, and it feels like I have been overtried and cast aside. When will God do something for me? IS there any of you who can do prophecy and recieve a word from the Lord? I am languishing in many ways and totally perverted in some ways. I want my freedom back and my life back, its like the love I had for God is being taken from me by force, its against my will.

I had schizophrenia two years ago. The meds are not going to make it go away if u r taking the medicine is the way they told you to(there's something about the human brain that God only know of,). I know cause I had it. We can talk about how my schizophrenia was healed few years ago if u want.

I think God actually healed my schizophrenia, but I am under treatment order so I have to take medication. I am severely depressed because I cannot study and do the things I once enjoyed, I feel disabled, crippled even, and I cope with porn and videogames, which makes me sadder. I want to do the good but I am actually unable to do so, its frustrating and I wonder when God will do something.

only love man.
don't think for a second any of the guys feeding you chemicals wish you well.
you need love, you have to love.

I'm under treatment orders too to take medicine for my schizophrenia n visit a counselor, but I don't do neither. Drugs can be an addition. It will make you think if you don't take it your illness will get worse. Because a doctor said take something doesn't mean you have to. You know your body more than any doctor in the world.

Oh no I was placed under a certificate so I do not take my injections the police will come and forcibly take me to the hospital and I might get put there for some time, or I have to take the injection forced. I live in Alberta, its a really terrible law, I want to appeal but I also get the feeling God is testing me and wants me to take medication as an act of obedience. I am pretty sad by all of it. I wish things could get better.

sorry man.
on what they call meds it will get worse.
you'll be numbed down. you'll be thefted from yourself.
if someday you're helped away from it you will recognize yourself again.
not cool.

god is not testing you with poison.
"kingdom against kingdom."

Fubario,I'm so sorry to hear this,I can't imagine what your going through,I will be praying for you,in Lord Jesus name,Amen.

I can not put into words the benefit of Christian radio playing anytime you are home. Feeding your Spirit with Gods word many hrs a day through Christian radio is no effort at all on your part ..... Your mind and Spirit will be on the kingdom of God. This will in effect guide you in Gods ways and give you some Spiritual armor for resisting those that are pushing the worlds ways upon you.

I pray that Jesus intervene in your life. That he gives you strength and courage to overcome all of the emotional and spiritual difficulties that you are facing. I ask this in Jesus name. AMEN!

good you.
Christ Is Real.

hallelujah.
may gent have his hands and feet free for the radio.
there is more to freedom here.
the radio is not a stop.
victory in Christ.
<3

bible, man.
you might need routine.
an hour in the morning, an hour in the evening? an hour if you wake in the night?
there's a verse of no harm under any circumstance or so...

Just cry out to God and lay all your burdens at His feet. He has said if we have the faith of a mustard seed that we could move mountains and of course God is the one doing the moving.

Let me tell you a quick story. Recently I went to Las Vegas to get married, We had a deal at a Hilton Resort out there and paid little money all we had to do was listen to a timeshare offer they scheduled it on a Saturday and I am a Sabbath keeper I went ahead and tried to talk them into a Friday time but it was all filled up so went ahead and scheduled the appointment.

In the mean time I prayed Lord You know I want to honor You and I give this problem to You please fix this for me. I made another appeal to change the meeting to Friday and it was still filled up but they took my name and said they would call if an opening happened. A few days before we left for Las Vegas I got a phone call saying the meeting had been changed to Friday that one spot had opened and they gave it to me. Was I surprised? Not at all because I knew that God would take care of it for me and fix it in time and I trusted had faith and believed that He would help me which He did.

Now I tell you this story because of your situation that you are crying out for help on. Give this to God with all your heart and then believe that He will help you get through this. God can and will take the desire away from you on your addictions and problems. Ask Him, Believe Him and Receive the blessings and victories He will surly send your way. This is called faith and God delights to help us and to build our faith.

Dear Father In Heaven

Please help my brother to build his faith in You and to give you his problems and addictions. Help him to be an overcomer and to rest in You and trust and believe that You are able and willing to help him with all his troubles. Father I know without a doubt that You can and will help him become an overcomer and gain the victory over his problems. Help him to call on You and ask for your help I pray in Jesus Name Amen.

GOD wants u to take meds as an act of obedience. Please don't say that. That's Satan's way of thinking. You said it yourself God has already healed you So why do u think he want you to suffer any longer. When God healed you. No matter what a doctor with 10 medica degrees say. God's word is final. Now just have faith and be brave and fight for your independent and your mind. I had been there. 1 months of hell. Even God said "He will wish he was never born"

There wasn't a direct link to this page - but it's from http://psychrights.org/
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Will pray that you can find a Psychiatrist or Doctor that can help you and that HE will Protect you!

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• Loss of Choice: The Mental Health System, The Martlet, February 20, 2014.
• In the Matter of the Inquest Touching the Death of Ashley Smith And in The Matter of an Application by the Empowerment Council, a Party with Standing, to Call Witnesses, September, 2013.
• 'Nobody cared' about her son — until he hanged himself, by Diana Zlomislic, Totonto News, July 14, 2011
• Zyprexa Settlement.
• Are we medicating a disorder or treating boyhood as a disease? By Carolyn Abraham, The Globe and Mail, October 18, 2010.
• Youth Lock-ups Blasted, by Diana Zlomislic, Toronto Star, July 7, 2010.
• Tribunals can apply Charter rights, Supreme Court rules, The Globe and Mail, June 11, 2010.
• Struggling Against Psychiatry’s Human Rights Violations – An Antipsychiatry Perspective, by Don Weitz (published online in Radical Psychology, volume 7, Summer 2008, http://radicalpsychology.org)
• The Mental Health Law Program of the Community Legal Assistance Society
• Expert Panel Recommendations: Standards of Care fot he Administration of Psychotropic Medications to Children and Youth Living in Licensed Residential Settings, July, 2008.
• Autopsy of an Autopsy of an Ontario Schizophrenic, November, 2007.
• Don Weitz Acceptance Speech for Award in Advocacy from the Mental Health Legal Committee, in Toronto, April 27, 2007.
• Young Canadian children are being prescribed anti-psychotic drugs, by Sharon Kirkey, CanWest News Service, Monday, June 18, 2007
• Challenging Mainstream Media – Psychiatry’s Cheerleaders, by Don Weitz

British Columbia

• Identity, Inmates, Insight, Capacity, Consent, Coercion: Chemical Incarceration in Psychiatric Survivor Experiences of Community Treatment Orders, Erik Fabris
• Ontario Human Rights Commission rules inquests must be held for inpatient deaths.
• Health Canada "Dear Health Care Letter" regarding the heart damaging characteristics of ADHD drugs, May 2006.
• VGH detained and drugged man against his will: Judge finds patient was committed without proper paperwork, August 27, Vancouver on Canada.com
• Stephen Mullins v. Dr. John Mark Levy, et al, Reasons for Judgment The Supreme Court of B.C. awarded Stephen Mullins $15,000 damages and costs for false arrest, false imprisonment and assault. The Court found that, suffering a panic attack brought on by family deaths and business pressures and going to VGH for help, Stephen was wrongfully seized and beaten by VGH security people, locked in a prison-like cell and drugged to unconsciousness without being examined by doctors who signed false Certificates after he was detained and imprisoned. Unfortunately the trial judge rejected arguments that Stephen's constitutional rights were breached by the precipitate and negligent acts of the defendants. In effect, bank robbers, child rapists and murderers have more rights than honest, law-abiding citizens who suffer emotional upset or more serious mental illness. The Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms purports to require that everyone who is detained or imprisoned be informed of the reason for the seizure and of the right to talk to a lawyer and he must promptly be given the means of calling a lawyer. (Description taken from an e-mail by his lawyer.)
• June 6, 2005 Legislative Hearing.

Ontario

• Psychiatric Patient Advocate Office
• In Starsky v Swayze, the appeals court ruled Ontario Review Board improperly force drugged Starson.
• We Are All Equal In Ontario Courts -- Yeah Right! Volume II

The one link that I wanted didn't work from that list but did a search --- Mental Health Law Program - Community Legal Assistance Society

Yes, Keep Searching and like one brother said, turn on Christian radio in the background and listen to those on here that have been-there-done-that and Stay In The Word and Know that we're praying for you!
With the laws being what they are - it 'appears' [but it's case by case] that you will need a Dr of some sort to help you legally get off of these drugs and to help with the body's withdrawals - so keep searching these sites and see what advocacy Orgs or groups are in your area. DO all that you can and that positive work will keep your mind on productive positive activities rather than sinking.

Keep doing Searches on the internet, listening to Christian radio, reading His Word and again, know you are definitely in the prayers of these really thoughtful saints here, for which I too am grateful to & Thank God!

This saddens me for you!
Im not familiar with the laws in Canada. But years ago..I got depressed.....big time. I was put on meds....and everytime I went back to the doctor he added a med.....I was on so much medication....swpapping different ones and adding different ones for several years.....I lost myself....I lost my closeness to Christ.....I did things that weren't right by God......it was awful.....I was a psychological mess.....told i was bipolar.....told all kinds of things.....all I knew was that the meds made me worse.....
Finally.....I weaned myself off of everything.
I turned to Christ......praying....pleading......reading His word and studying with a study Bible.....with devotionals.....listening to uplifting Christian music and going to church to surround myself with people of faith....and being as active as possible in church.
I am fine now. I did find out that my thyroid was low so Im on medication for hypothyroidism for the rest of my life.
I understand that some people have to take medications for various reasons. But I also KNOW that Christ is the great physician and can heal us of anything and everything.
You told of all of the "bad" things that you are doing, and say yo feel bad and sad for doing them.....then you ARE aware they are wrong....so dont do them!! When you're tempted......do something else!! The more satan can get you into sin....the deeper he will pull you. RESIST him!!
Christ knows where you are. He isnt leaving you. I know that He allows us to be in the storms of life, for reason that we may not uderstand......but He also uses those storms to get us to a much better place. He did for me.
I will pray for you. I hope and pray that you will continue to pray to God!!!! He hears your cries!!!Never lose faith or hope..........I pray for your healing, and peace.
God Bless~~
I pray for your healing and peace.

be aware that s.y pr.tein destroys many many thyr.ids and also prevents nutriti.n from entering the b.dy as needed.
it is abominably marketed as a 'health food' yet destr.ys pe.ples lives daily, including infants and small children and toddlers and teens and on up the age chain.

keep seeking, for the truth sets us free.