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I've posted many times in the past weeks concerning my marriage. It's gone from bad to worse. I love my husband dearly even though he has turned into someone I don't know. He has become an angry abusive person. No matter what I do it's wrong. Have I made mistakes and done things wrong many many. Especially in the last rounding issues. I went to a friend of his for advice. Told him private information about my step son. I was worried and over my head. My husband blamed me for my step sons problems at school and emotional. He was suisidal and my husband blamed me. I reached out for help from his best friend. I shouldn't have. I should have gone to a professional. I ahouldnt have trusted his best friend who I knew could be petty and self serving. But I thought that we both had a love for my husband. Regardless I was wrong and my marriage is irreversible broken I believe. I have said I'm sorry but he is hurt and doesn't listen. Again this is one of many things over the last month. I love him and wish it would work out but it won't and his controlling and abisive behavior is unacceptable. I have two step sons that he will block me from that I love very much that need me because I am the only mother in their life's. They need prayers, my husband needs prayers who I beleive loved me but has anger and abuse issues, I have three kids who will need prayers and I need prayers to do the hardest thing I have ever done. I don't like walking away but I've become scared of him and his anger and I have become a victim and I don't like it at all. I have to put a stop to the way he treats me even if it hurts worse than dealing with it because it only has gotten worse. So please pray for us as much as you can. Thank you and God bless!!