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Its been a month since my husband and I broke up and my heart is torn apart. I know he still loves me but he so stubborn and down on himself. I forgive him but he must forgive himself and seek God for himself. Its like God said, when a couple marries they become as one. I feel his spirit and the bond we have is so strong but because of his stubbornness and the fact that we are under court order to stay away from each other, it is putting a deep strain on our marriage. Maybe we will never be together again but I cant give up. Its like I have lost my other half. I don't sleep and when I do I dream about him. Sometimes its like I can hear him calling my name. I have cut all contact with him because emotionally his undecivesness was wearing on me. I am becoming depressed and I feel very lonely. If we weren't married I would not fight this hard but God says let no man tear apart what he has put together. Please just pray for my strength. Im not managing at all. All I do is cry and I have become isolated. NOt having a job makes it worse because I see my kids stuggling and cant do anything to help. Lord Jesus please help me.