update about me

I for once kinda don't care anymore, don't know if this is a good thing, lost all feeling, it doesn't feel like me though, not caring about anything, I don't care, like that one guy said when he was posting in the forums how we shouldn't have feelings, I lost all love and I couldn't even cry when I prayed to God earlier, and this is coming from someone who was crying everyday in November...... not even sure if I should care about coming to this site, I was coming here and I liked it but I don't care to come here anymore for some reason..... I will continue to try to read his word, but something clouds me when I try..... Jesus blessed me with the greatest childhood, now that I think I let it go, I let go of myself as well.... have no clue who I am any more, I may never know..... but if my heart ever returns... I'll come back to this website.... think I'm just finally too tired of this world... there's nothing here for me..... later everyone.... God bless.... if I could but I'm not gonna say it b/c I know what I was gonna say isn't Gods Will.....

Greg keep in touch even if you feel dark and without purpose. I felt like that before and to be in the company of people with a relationship with God will always lift you up. Yes we bicker over the small stuff but that is because we are passionate about our believes. It is good to feel passion sometimes.

Good luck buddy!

We definitely should have feelings. Jesus taught love. He was quite passionate, in fact. Read any passage where he was debating those big wigs. The Book of John in part is about "The disciple whom Jesus loved."

I'm pretty new here, but I do remember your post about having trouble reading. I'll definitely say a prayer for you. I hope you do know God LOVES you and he has some kind of purpose for you. I'm not sure what it is, but there's definitely a reason you are here. You are a blessing to this world.

Heck, just knowing that Juggernaut pic is your avatar, I kind of relate the character to you, kind of makes me relate him and other X-Men characters to the bible. That would have never happened if I didn't come to this site, if you didn't put that as your avatar, and I never saw it. Funny how that works.

Greg, do not lose hope, for sometimes all flesh, must be removed, so we weill come to know that we are born into Spirit, Jesus's Spirit.
I do know of what you speak, and my word to you is to hold on in faith, continue to praise God, even when you feel nothing.
For such brings the Kingdom of heaven!
And the perfect love of Jesus to fill your heart.
I tell you to keep faith and praise, simply because, it brought me from what you speak to now, to a faith that is unmovable.
And the knowladge of Gods love for you in Jesus, that surpasses all understanding.
Ill be praying for you in Jesus.

God bless
pickles

I could never loose my Faith, Jesus has kept devils out my crib since I was 0, he was there with me at the beginning, I have to be with him til the end..... and yeah the Juggernaut thing, I kinda always thought if I was like juggernaut, I'd join the army and go in alone and destroy all the enemies weapons and give them hugs, I'd be called the Huggernaut.....

There is some bad news in what you are saying here but also some good.
Imagine yourself like an engine, which works simply, gets you up in the morning and helps you get through the things you need to do everyday.

Now what you are describing is unfocused emotional overload. So much emotion flying all over the place, your brain cannot cope. So what it does is close it down, so you apparently feel nothing. The reason is simple. If your body let you feel the level of feelings being triggered you would not function. You need to slow down, and focus on the simple things of life, which do not stress you out. You are fine where you are, just being you.

What you need to discover is small things that define what you like, how you approach things. We all have differences, likes and dislikes. They are not right or wrong, just expressions of our personality. Over time you body will allow you to feel these things, because you are not overwhelmed.

I hope this helps you, remember life is a gift, but can be rushed at too quickly....

Feelings are sometimes overwhelming... they get us to focus on them.
Feed yourself with God's Word and His promises. It's very good that you kept reading the Bible. Live life in such a way that you wont regret it when you come before Jesus! Use every moment to rejoice in His blessings. Praise Him! God delivered me of mood swings through praise alone. Look how huge promises of God we have - He is so good to us.

John 6:35 And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst.
John 6:38 For I came down from heaven, not to do mine own will, but the will of him that sent me.
John 6:39 And this is the Father's will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day.
John 6:40 And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day.

Feelings as messages. People get very confused. They think they are this single thing, that feels and reacts in a defined way. Unfortunately they get angry, sad, happy, sexually attracted to people, repulsed, full of hatred but known of these are part of their image of themselves. Rather than acknowledging the feeling, and accepting it is telling them how they are reacting, they deny it is from them at all, and bury the emotion. The system then presents it back but stronger this time, until a real battle begins.

The answer is not being scared of your feelings. They are messages of how you are reacting to life, but they are not who you are, they are just telling you where you are. You can then chose what to focus on, and what to do next. If you are sad you can do things that make you happy, if you are too happy, do things that calm you down. What you will discover is we only perceive a small part of who we are and how we work, but part of this discovery is listening to our feelings and reactions. We then can choose where we want to go and what to work on.

My son has a phobia of blood and needles. He slowly worked on this until he could cope like most people do, and probably now better. He still reacts badly, but he knows how to balance this out with other perspectives.
I used to suffer from claustrophobia is the underground. I now imagine I am in a train going through the countryside. Everything is the same up to the point of the sides of the train, and actually just as safe etc. It means I become the master of my responses and not the victim, but the first thing is to begin listening.

I say all this because Jesus came with a gospel of emotional freedom, of not being a victim or slave to impulses. His powerhouse is His love for us, demonstrated through the cross. Never under-estimate this eternal statement in history, there is nothing more powerful in your life...

Lord bless! In Jesus name, Amen!

Greg....what you are feeling can be conquered with Jesus! Number one...you need to ERASE ALL negative from your thoughts! Number two...pray praise and pray! Think 'outside' the box Greg! Your feelings of 'giving up' are lead by the devil! So you have troubles, we all do too, remember your not alone! Greg golly willabees.... If you change your thinking with praise too...your life will change! Greg I have read your posts CC prays for you, we know you are in turmoils.... But To be strong...tho I am no one special...but if you take my advice Its all I have to offer. I am no one special Greg...a wallflower at heart but please listen for a sweet heart tells you this to not leave...number Uno! Never give up on Jesus! For he died for your sin! Two...never give UP on yourself, because God loves you! Three...Never curse God for This world of science will deceive you! Don't fall into it! Yes I know yada yada....atheists try persuade us. Listen Greg...I have felt the Holy Spirit in me! I know its real! This is a Mortal world.…You said your parents were a blessing! Be graced with that....watch sunrises Greg...be thankful you have a face or legs Greg! Remember the healthy ones in life are often seen by God as judgements of? Does this person care about my angel, 'sick' child....hmmmm...let me see? Will my healthy creation....think about another with cancer or burned face? Hmm...let me see wonders God? Who is caring? Think outside the box Greg! Be happy you can pray! Be strong...please don't turn away from God, because he wants you to live in Him! I pray you are strong...in LOVE Greg...God Bless Yoiu

Please Greg...I am no one 'special'...but please PM me before you give up hope! I can teach you how to be joyous and grateful, even if all you had was a dirty quarter in your pocket. I'd pray with you Greg. I'd show you how though your life is troubled...there are fear people to me that suffer with cancers on CC! Or bone marrow transplants! Some people in our lives are Angels Greg...mirrors to reflect our own hearts. God gives u breath honey...take ur breath....and watch the dawn... The stars...be grateful to your face...for some children live sad. God bless you I pray PM me anytime!

Jesus asks you to be His child Greggy! Please don't give up!

So many caring ppl here..unlike u i'm unable to express the pain n numbness at the same time. I came to post prayer so early in the day, but just saying believe while i also ask to help my unbelief! Hold on greg!

I usually just act like Twoface, heads I do it tails I don't.....

Sigh, God didn't let me go to sleep last night sad, he tickled me like he does some times.....that's when I feel the most Joy, me and my brothers use to wake up laughing for no reason, our one friend which is pretty much anther brother still does, I guess his wife gets mad at him b/c it wakes her up.....lol pretty good alarm clock I guess..... but I didn't wake up feeling good, I had a dream and I said something in it I shouldn't of and woke in tears.......

Dreams mostly reflect the nature of our daily thoughts. Use your dreams simply like a test to see where your mind is at and what areas you need to invite God to work on. God is not angry with you for something you dreamed.

I was angry at myself

Well Greg, next time when you feel that way against the child of God within you remember that we love you and that God will finish the work in you that He started. (Phillipians 1:6)

Right now I feel pretty good, thank you every one, next time I need prayer I'll just say that b/c feelings have driven me almost to the point of insanity, it's hard to know what thoughts I should feel and which ones I shouldn't feel. And I wouldn't want someone coming in here that has been battling the same thing start thinking the way I have just b/c of something I posted.

I went for a walk in the rain and stared at the sun go down, haven't done that in awhile.

We all go through emotional roller coasters, I know I sure do. Most people battle those really dark moments where they feel like they're not right in the head. But the Lord strengthens us and builds us up in Him where the circumstances and feelings aren't the reality anymore. Those trials won't be as real as His Holy Spirit's comfort, the Lord's tender Voice, and His Word that resounds in our heart. You are on that road now with Christ. It is Him that is changing us and making us into His image more and more each moment.

Thank you for sharing your heart, your thoughts and your true testimony in the Lord Jesus, brother Greg!

Violet is correct. Sometimes we forget how we have been. I was an emotional WRECK when I just came to believe. I mean it. It took years for God to sort me out so I can function halfway decent... lol. Forgive me if I'm bugging your thread too much, just trying to cheer you up.
My point is, you're actually doing pretty good Bro... It takes time to learn to navigate through emotions and ground yourself in peace of Jesus. All our lives, things have been taking hold of us. Suddenly, we are given opportunity to rule with Jesus. That is new and takes time to get in tune with Him... still practicing it myself. Peace, be still, Jesus said to the sea storm (that is our minds and hearts being at peace. Look how the forces of the air ar raging but there is peace in the sea - the sea in Heaven was "like glass")

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