Rumors are definitely painful! I live in a small town. The adage goes, "You don't see much here, but what you here makes up for it." It's a sad joke. Unfortunately it's also the truth of how the town operates. Life is God's gift. Ending it is Satan's calling card. I know. I tried to do that myself more than once. Today I work on God's time clock. The best thing you could do for yourself...two things...open scripture - read what God has to say. If you're Bible shy, get a devotional. 2. Do good deeds for less fortunate people. Like wash dishes, or read a story to someone in the nursing home or rake leaves. Bake someone some banana bread. YOU are the one who benefits most. You'll feel better knowing you made a difference in someone else's life. You're beautiful! Don't ever forget that. : )