Adieu & Prayer

Most of you either know me or heard of me. Im the guy who rants,
the guy known for hating ''womenz.'' I know not everyone I got along with.
I have decided to deactivate my account and take time to sort myself out
and truly find God myself. I have prayed the prayer over and over for years
and finally it has stuck to me its more then words. I never have really wholeheartedly
believed or trusted Jesus as my savior. There are decisions that need to be made
in my life and i ask that you people pray for my son and me. Pray that strongholds
that keep me from receiving Gods love be broken. I don't hate women and if i made
anyone feel that way I do apologize and to those i may have cause offense i apologize. Many people on here many I never spoken too directly
but all in all those who I did speak too thank you. If i ever do find myself back here again
Hopefully it is under faith and trusting Christ and healed from the things that
have me wounded, but till then I don't know. Love is a elusive thing to me
stems from upbringing not having motherly love hard not to view God in such light tho i know actions
of people don't bare on Gods nature. So all i ask is prayer really.
Thank you to all the admins while i been here for your patience I probaly
pushed the line a few times and thanks to anyone who is praying and will pray

Awe souljah, I see from your very post that God is there with you and works in you and with you... He's been at work patiently, and right NOW He is at work this very moment... it's funny that you're unsure because I could almost see a huge sign "GOD AT WORK" as I read your post! It is very good that you realize that you have been doing some things out of hurt and that you recognize a need for restoration. I'm praying that you are able to give God this hurt that happened in your life and trust Him fully as your ultimate parent.

I really feel for you because my earthly parents also affected my view of God. They always placed high demands on me, didnt accept me and were never satisfied with me no matter how well I performed... For a very long time, I thought God was the same way and I kept running from Him. Yeah I knew from the book that it wasnt supposed to be that way, but I still felt about Him that He was a judge who couldnt wait to smash me with a hammer as soon as I mess up. Feelings come from the flesh - I was just reiterating what I've learnt from my earthly parents.

It helped me, and it will help you too to read the Word of God, especially the Gospels and Psalms... you literally need to brain-wash these false beliefs away with the truth in the Word of God! Faith comes by hearing the Word of God.

I'm praying that Jesus will MIGHTILY uplift you and that you will soon come here again, this time to share with us a report of PRAISE about how awesome God is and how amazing His love is and how He never gave up on you. amen

Time to come home my friend. Jesus is calling you. Abandon your life,take up his life. Nobody can 'sort of" serve him. Most anyone here can lead you in a prayer of repentance and salvation.

You see,we are all bad people.Those that are saved and walk with Jesus learn that anything good in them is attrbuted to the change HE MADE in their individuall lives.

Lord hold his hand and guide him, let him ignore his knowledge and wisdom. And help him to lead a simple and faithful life for you, in Jesus name, Amen!

This breaks my heart.....cause we moms got a bad wrap with you.......I want so badly to show you
the mother who puts God first........can I be your mom???? Would you let me show you what a mom
really is......cause I love my children and grandchildren more than I could ever explain.......that I know
God loves me more than that.......it makes me wonder if I could ever hold that much love inside me......I think I would burst........you do realize that family has nothing to do with blood....(except of the blood of the Lamb...) It is someone who loves you ....anyway.....for all of your faults ......to me that's family.....now its you.....and your son......do you think that you will want him to feel the way you do about woman......I'm not saying you hate woman........but you sound hurt....betrayed.....left behind...I have been told by some very reliable sources that I'm the best mom... ever......probably because I know I'm not perfect.....that I have made mistakes .....sinned.....fallen short.....and still
I am loved.....perfect would never describe me......but I try harder than most....and I never say ....I told you so......I can listen.....I never give advice or my opinion unless asked........sounds pretty much as my opinion of a good mom.....I think you need to deal with this .....for your son.....I pray my children find husbands who put God first.....then all else falls into place.....I want you to pm me......let's have a conversation.....I wont pry into your business... I would like to here about your son......don't give up....
don't leave us......forgiveness is what we are all called to do......so what ever you have said ....no one is judging you.....we are your family......many good moms here.....let us help you....for your son.....
let him learn what kind of woman he should have for a wife.....give him every opportunity to avoid the
trials you have faced......I'm here ....and I'm praying for you........peace....jo

Aww souljah... even though you probably won't be reading this, I hope you are okay. You have always been a friend, and I wish that we could have chatted more. Hope to catch up with you soon bro. Be blessed