Suicidal Thoughts

I've been getting thoughts like these again. I started ripping my skin again and it makes me feel better. I know I need help but I don't know where to find it or what to do.
My grandma is very sick, I lost my job and I don't have any friends. I hurt a good friend of mine on here unintentionally and I feel like a bad person. My life is very crummy right now.
I haven't eaten in three days because I don't even get hungry anymore. I wish I hadn't been born. I hate my life.

I just wish I could be happy like everyone else on here. I wish I could have a normal life but I can't. It's very hard for me.

Can you guys please pray for me to feel better because I'm getting worse and I don't know what to do anymore. I read the Bible, I try to talk to my Pastors and my family but nothing helps. I am alone a lot of the time and I get really bad thoughts in my head.

who said everyone here happy and having a normal life???
i'll praying for you through this hardest time of your life but you must realize you are not alone who struggle with life... if you want someone to talk/vent or listening to i'm here.. feel free to pm me

Hi Molly
Sorry you're going through all this again.
But as the above poster said, don't assume everyone else is happy and having 'normal' lives. Many on here have suffered, or are, suffering. Some as deeply as you.

Dear sister,

I´m sorry to know you´re feeling that way. That´s the point you must seek the Lord even more. Find a church if you don´t have one, also. Read Psalms and Proverbs. And I think it would be good for you to get help with a psychiatrist.

I´ll pray for you.


God bless!

James 4:4
Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.

1 John 2:15
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

John 15:19
If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.

John 12:25
Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.

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Every time this world pushes me into depression and wanting to leave it, I think instead that I must be doing something right.

You should probably seek medical help for your depression. You are still quite young you have plenty of time for your life to change or to start over if you feel you should. Don't be so hard on yourself. you are by no means the only person on here who feels crushed or who has felt that way in the past.

Yes, a good psychiatrist and read the Psalms over and over. God helped me through a terrible period of depression when I was crippled by Rheumatoid Arthritis through reading the Psalms.

The Psalms will help you realize that we are all hurting and broken. The psychiatrist can help you with the cutting, and hopefully with the depression.

Praying you seek the medical and Scriptural support you need!

Molly, Just want to give you some words of encouragement in the Lord. Being a Christian is not always an easy road, but learning how to become strong in the Lord is of most importance, when overcoming the darkness that comes against us. I have been a Christian for 31 years, as I can remember the struggle it was to overcome many things in my life. I just had a lot of worries & fears about everything it seemed. I knew how important it was to remain as close to Jesus as I possibly could, by spending time reading my bible daily. I did spend years reading Psalms, which I found to be very comforting to me. I knew the Lord was speaking to me personally through His word, and it was like a "life line" to me. Psalms 91 is a powerful chapter & I would encourage you to read it often. Jesus want to fill you with His life giving spirit & renew your mind, but you need to be diligent & allow Him to begin strengthen you daily.

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[SUP]1 [/SUP]Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[SUP][a][/SUP]
[SUP]2 [/SUP]I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

[SUP]3 [/SUP]Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
[SUP]6 [/SUP]nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
[SUP]7 [/SUP]A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
[SUP]8 [/SUP]You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

[SUP]9 [/SUP]If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
[SUP]10 [/SUP]no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
[SUP]11 [/SUP]For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
[SUP]12 [/SUP]they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
[SUP]13 [/SUP]You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

[SUP]14 [/SUP]“Because he[SUP][b][/SUP] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
[SUP]15 [/SUP]He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
[SUP]16 [/SUP]With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”

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Thank you all! I'm feeling a little better now but it's a day to day thing. Some days I'm fine and others I feel absolutely awful. I apologize for saying everyone on here is happy. I guess that was just a blinding moment. I'm going to try and work on getting over this depression and maybe seeing someone about it.

I will be praying for you Molly

Molly, every believer has troubles - some far worse than others. That's why Jesus said for us to pick up our cross and follow Him. The Christian life isn't easy, but it's certainly worth it.

Please remember how loved you are. You have a big family right here, who may not know you personally, but love you as a sister in the Lord.

God loves you deeply, with a love you one day will truly understand. Jesus died to save you. If you were the only person alive, He would still have willingly gone to that cross.

The Devil wants you depressed. He wants you to be ineffective in your Christian life. He desires for you to stay centered on your problems, and little else.

Don't allow it. Pray for help and the strength you need. God hears our faintest cry. He loves us more than any earthly parent ever could. We may not now understand why we go through the things we do, but know for sure, God has what is best for us in mind.

Cling to Him.

Praying for you.

Lord we pray for your daughter MollyConnor, remove every negative feelings specially the sucicidals, thoughts, they are not from you, we pray let your words, thought occupy her mind, and guide her, Lord redeem this soul, and bless for your greater glory in her life, Bless her, in Jesus name, Amen!

Psalm 18:28

I understand you I've had the same issues too, I will be praying for you

You guys are awesome! Thank you so much for all the support, I really appreciate it!

Wow Molly sorry to hear about your struggles ...what I have seen of your post, you seem cool to me and very well balanced....if you ever get to feeling overwhelmed again, be sure to log on to the forum and reach out for some help...I know about suicidal thoughts and know the power God has to help us overcome such things...you have my sincere prayer unto the Lord of Glory

Thank you, Mitspa. When I am going through these struggles I try to hide it by helping others. I guess helping others helps me cope with those bad thoughts about myself. Sometimes I just feel inferior or less of a person. I don't know why. I haven't gone through anything traumatic like other people have, like my mom tells me. But I do feel that way.
Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite but I know I just need to trust God and hope for the best.
Blessings to you!

Aw, Molly, I'm so sorry. I will certainly pray for you tonight, and if I have any advice that I think might help, I will send you a PM if that's okay. Hugs, I hope you have a good night <3

I don't know that I can be of much help, dear sister. I don't know how you feel, so I won't pretend I do. But this post makes me hurt for you. I'll be praying for you, absolutely. You are loved. So loved!