I don't know the whole of your story, but I know the whole of the God that lives in you, because I have experienced Him.. "He who hesitates is lost", yes, we need to immediately act upon the "ought to's" in our lives God has placed there. He will see it thru with you.
That's an issue of faith now, but I will also pray for you to gain peace in it and to open and close needed doors along the way. I pray for gained confidence and boldness in that thing He is calling you to do. God bless you richly. Be encouraged and remember this relationship you have with Jesus is in real-time, so as you obey with the faith, even of a mustard seed, Gods grace becomes the overflowing favor of God, and you can always count on it being available to draw upon as needed. Do not be Torn, but be surely headed! Place your decisions in the lap of God and GO! God will take care of the rest..sometimes it can take diligent faithfulness, but eventually God will show His glory in it.