Please Pray For Me I'm at the end of my rope. Please

Hi everyone. I am a stay-at-home mom of a 3 year old baby girl. I have posted here because i don't know where else to turn. Here's my problem, well a short version. I have Fibromyalgia, which already makes me weak and hurt. I have mild Scoliosis, which is a curvature of the spine, not enough to hurt though. I have been overweight my whole life, mainly I belive due to depression. When I gave birth almost three years ago I was at my heaviest at 276 pounds. Now, three years later I finally got my depression in order, and have lost down to 200 pounds. I'm 5'4 and very big boned. My dr said my goal weight is 160. I have done this with diet alone as my back will not allow me to exercise. I have been to my doctor, done physical therapy, seen a chiropractor, had an MRI, and x-rays. It's almost a crippling pain in my middle back. My stomach has always been my problem area, but until recently it never caused me problems. My dr finally decided just like heavy large breasts, all my loose skin on my stomach is what is causing the problem and only if I get a tummy tuck will I ever be normal again. She says theres nothing more she can do for me, for me to get daycare and be knocked out on Flexeril 24/7. I can not live that way. I have went round and round with my insurance trying so hard to get it paid for, even my psyciatrist sent them a letter saying it would greatly help my depression and self esteem issues as well. They still refuse after all the tests and evidence. I pray every day for my family, and people in need, not often praying for myself as I feel guilty asking for help for myself. But the last couple months it seems all I do is pray. Pray that it will get better, pray for a doctor to do the tummy tuck, pray I am able to even move about my house. I am 24 years old and can't even do my own housework anymore. I can't lift my 30 pound three year old when she says "pick me up mommy". It hurts so bad, I have to be pushed in a wheelchair in walmart. I feel like a failure, I feel worthless. Sometimes I feel like ending it all. Sometimes I feel like she would be better off not seeing her mommy like this. So everyone, please, please, pray for me. This is my last resort, my last hope. Please pray that a miracle happens for me. Thank you all for your time, and listening. If anyone has any advice, or have been through this please feel free to email me at [email protected] Thanks again everybody

Krissy, in all honesty I can't express how much I wish I had an easy answer for you. I wish I could tell you that everything will magically sort itself out, but I can't. What I am learning, though, is that even in our darkest, most depressing times, God is still there, and He wants us to trust Him, even when our minds rage against the idea. God had been pressing on my heart to pray for some of the people in here, but I resisted because I didn't want to be bothered with everyone else's problems. I do know that God loves you, and that He wants the absolute best for you. I don't know what that is, but He does, and so my prayer is that He will reach you, no matter your situation or feelings about it. I pray that, as the saying goes, God will "meet you at your point of greatest need", and make sure you have peace. I pray that somehow, you will recieve a huge blessing and even more security in your life. We don't always understand why God makes some of the choices He does, but His will is not for anyone to perish. He wants us to have life, and to have it more abundantly, no matter what. I pray that you recieve that, in Jesus' name. Amen.

Krissy,
I am so sorry you are going thru this. I pray right now that you feel the comfort of the Lord, that you will feel like you have been hugged this week. I pray for encouragement and HELP from many sources. I pray for protection for you and your daughter from the attack of the enemy.
I pray that you hear from God and that He will give you the wisdom and knowledge you need.
I know what it is like to feel hopeless, to feel like you are a failure. People can tell you that you are not a failure and you are worthy, but God needs to reveal it to you. Do you have a church or know some Christians that can fellowship with you at your home or help out with your daughter?
She needs you but I am sure you know that.
There is HOPE. I pray for HOPE and FAITH to rise up in you woman of God.
I do not have an instant answer either, but I can tell you that after months of speaking out the scripture that God gave me I was able to overcome a lot of physical pain and also fear. I do believe that reading the Bible, esp. the Psalms is helpful. When I was sick recently, I found some online streaming video from church websites and listened to them. I tried to fill up my mind with those teachings/preachings and not watch so much TV which is depressing most of the time.
I will keep you in my prayers and check back in here tomorrow night. If you'd like some websites of churches that have some good sermons etc. I will post some at that time.
Meantime hug that little girl -- you are doing an amazing job taking care of her and dealing with what you are dealing with. You are STRONG and she will be strong.
You are NOT alone!!!
God Bless and Love, Karol Bell (LegalEagle)

The first thing I thought of was SWIMMING. It is so bonding with kids and parents. It might be low impact enough. I will pray for you and your family.

Hi Krissy, I do so understand what you are going through. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in my twenties. I am also a stay at home mom ,and at the time I was diagnosed, I had 5 children all under age seven. I also had back problems and still do. I tell you all of this so that you will know how much I understand how you feel.
When you shared how you feel I felt the same as you do and felt very alone as well.
You are and will continue to be a good mom. I managed to raise my kids, not always easy, but now they are grown and have turned out wonderful.
Im sure this will be the same for your child.
You are doing the right thing trusting in God, his love and comfort got me through many hard days.
I remember hitting the point a few times where I wondered if I could continue. But Jesus helped me to see that I was so sad because I wanted to live my life so much. Then Jesus helped me to see that my illness had given me a gift, a deep love and faith in Jesus and a love for what life is, and an appreaciation for every moment in my life. Most people go through life never realizing what they have, the pain and fatgue gave me a gratitude for all of life.
I learned to take one day at a time, doing what I could each day and doing more when able.
Learn what you can do, it took a little time but you will.
Also because I could not do alot of other things it gave me alot of time to share with my children.
You can and will learn to find the joy in life, I know because I did with Jesus's help.
I will keep you and your child in my prayers.
If you just need a shoulder or some one to vent to feel free to pm me.
Im ussually on late at night.
I will continue to keep all, for you in my daily prayers.
Hugs and God bless, pickles

Ps , although the meds may seem strong now your body will adjust and you will find that the side affects will improve.
Hugs, pickles