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Hello,

I'm in an extremely dark place in my life right now & could really use some prayer. I'm 32, was married for 10 years, and have two beautiful children who mean the world to me. Unfortunately, several months ago, I made the biggest series of mistakes that I've ever made in my life, and they're going to cost me my wife, my children, and my freedom.

Long story short, I got involved in some criminal online activity. I wont go into detail online, but there's a very real possibility that I may be looking at substantial jail time. I wish I had a good answer as to why I did what I did, but I can really only chalk it up to making extremely stupid decisions that I wish I'd never made. After finding out, my wife has decided to divorce me, and the divorce becomes final in late March. She's seeking sole custody as well. So right now, I'm going from a father who had an active role in my childrens' daily lives to not knowing the next time I'm going to see them, and it's tearing my heart out. This, on top of the extreme fear I'm facing knowing I could be going to jail, on top of the extreme guilt I'm feeling for letting my former wife and children down is a combination of thoughts that is completely overwhelming me.

I know that I'm at fault here, and I've done my best to pray for God to forgive me, but I'm still in deep, deep despair over the loss of my wife and kids. If anyone reading this can pray for me, I'd really appreciate it. I really don't want to end my life, but the suicidal thoughts are becoming more and more severe.

Thanks for reading.

Praying for you.

When the two become one, wink wink, that is what establishes a spousal relationship before God in the spiritual realm. Marriage is a public confession of that relationship. That is why the marriage is not considered valid until it's consummated, you can't have a confession of something that doesn't exist.

As one flesh, as spouses, the two are forever joined and responsible to each other. You can divorce, but you're still spousal and responsible to each other. Forever.

So you have to look big-picture-wise when it comes to smoothing over these things. You're eternally linked no matter what happens. And the situation is not going to be made right over night, so don't even try. You have all eternity to do so, and being pushy will only push her farther away. So don't do anything rash or short sighted… just be there as you should be as the days unwind, and God will take care of the rest. Because to Him, you’ll never be apart.

Secondly, no matter how far off God's path we stray, His path is always only one step away. Repent, and walk His path from wherever you are, and He will lead you back to where you need to be.

You have to move forward brother. Problems in life, whether caused by you or not, are to be looked at as stepping stones. We need not look back and regret. We need to look back and learn, grow and have an objective view in life. You, like the rest of us, are a mine full of gems of inestimable value that are of benefit to many others that will cross paths with you. Be calm, be strong, be grateful, and become a lamp full of light, that the darkness of sorrows be annihilated, and that the sun of everlasting joy arise from the dawning-place of heart and soul, shining brightly. Make His love your armor and more forward full of hope. I offer to our Lord this prayer for you,

He is the Compassionate, the All-Bountiful! O God, my God! Thou seest me, Thou knowest me; Thou art my Haven and my Refuge. None have I sought nor any will I seek save Thee; no path have I trodden nor any will I tread but the path of Thy love. In the darksome night of despair, my eye turneth expectant and full of hope to the morn of Thy boundless favor and at the hour of dawn my drooping soul is refreshed and strengthened in remembrance of Thy beauty and perfection. He whom the grace of Thy mercy aideth, though he be but a drop, shall become the boundless ocean, and the merest atom which the outpouring of Thy loving kindness assisteth, shall shine even as the radiant star.


Shelter under Thy protection, O Thou Spirit of purity, Thou Who art the All-Bountiful Provider, this enthralled, enkindled servant of Thine. Aid him in this world of being to remain steadfast and firm in Thy love and grant that this broken-winged bird attain a refuge and shelter in Thy divine nest that abideth upon the celestial tree.

Father God forgive jeremylee3 from all the past activites, heal his heart. Give a new life and bless him . Yes Lord please help and you work in his life. In Jesus name, Amen!

Jeremy, Just want to continue the prayers for you & stand in agreement that there is Hope for you! I just want to challenge you right at this moment, to take your eyes off your circumstances & fix them upon Jesus. Jesus, is everything you need or will ever need in this life. No matter how dark, bleak & hopeless you may feel right now, that truth is that Jesus your Lord & Savior is right there with you & He is able to do abundantly above all that you would ever ask or think, Ephesians 3:30. Even though you are facing a battle before you, just know the the Lord is a Might Warrior who will lead that way & carry you through whatever your are facing. He is more than able to rebuild your life & stronger than it was before. Just look to Jesus & say to Him " Jesus I Trust in You" Let the Lord, fight your battles. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you...you need only to be still..

I pray you will keep getting strength from God. we easily blame ourselves which hurts, but it's up to you to change and realize that Life goes on. Which I'm sure your doing. Pray to god he does hear your prayers, there are alot of addictive behaviours for things that take our mind of real love. I pray you are reunited with your wife eventually, and that god will help you. Do not be afraid as the Lord God is with you. Take Care of yourself.

Hi Jeremy


Sorry to hear of all your troubles. Dont let the sucidal thoughts win you over. I used to have have them before I got saved. Its the enemy of your soul.

Surrender to Jesus , me personally I would recommend fasting and prayer and getting into the bible and reading as much as you can .

When I go though difficult times I might just drink water and read and put aside time to pray and talk to God. Try one day first I dont know if you have experience fasting but I find it really can make a break through when it seems like one is not possible.

2 Chronicles 7:14
If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

We humble ourselfs by fasting and denying the flesh,
James 4:7-8
Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.

Get rid of all distractions tv, technology, maybe just take calls or texts but if you can do with out that then do that also.
Read the bible aloud I find that helps alot. Isaiah is a powerful book to read or Revelations .

I hope this helps , God bless you brother.
Ill pray for you too. Heavenly Father I pray please help my Brother Jeremy to get through this difficult time , Please draw him to yourself and show him he is not alone. Oh Lord you give and you take away, I pray that this time will be used to make Jeremys relationship with you stronger than it ever has been before. Lord please help him to draw close to you and to forget about the storm right now . Help him to seek first the Kingdom of God . Jesus be his strength and his shield and comforter at this difficult time In Jesus Mighty name I pray Amen.



[h=1]Numbers 6:24-26King James Version (KJV)[/h] [SUP]24 [/SUP]The Lord bless thee, and keep thee:
[SUP]25 [/SUP]The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:
[SUP]26 [/SUP]The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.


[h=1]Psalm 23King James Version (KJV)[/h] 23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
[SUP]3 [/SUP]He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
[SUP]6 [/SUP]Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

May God give you strength and grace in your time of need! He loves at all times.

I can feel your pain and remorse. If you ever think of suicide, remember that your children will have to live with the stigma and pain that their dad took his own life.

We had a former mobster speak at our Church a couple of years ago. His testimony was riveting.

Check out his story. He may inspire you. He also wrote a good book called "Godthefather". Peace, Grace, and Love to you in Jesus name.
Michael Franzese - Christian Speaker - Former Mob Captain of the Colombo Crime Family

Praying for you brother, you are not alone, there is always hope with God

Thanks to everyone for the prayers. It truly helps to know that there are others out there praying for me.

Beautiful and encouraging Violet
In agreement
Praying for you