Healing Of My Perspective On Who God Is

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Jan 20, 2016
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Spoke to some people, both here and in real life.
It goes back to the parable of talents.

Some got 10. Some got 5. Some got 1. I got 1.
10 doubled to 20.
5 doubled to 10.
1 doubles to 2.

20 doubles to 40
10 doubles to 20
2 doubles to 4

40 doubles to 80
20 doubles to 40
4 doubles to 8

I believe, in my heart of heart of hearts, God cheated me royally.
I cant even count 1 talent I can be thankful for.

Specifically, I have two friends.
One grew up homeschooled, protected, in a nice neighborhood. Is married to a very beautiful young lady. Makes a lot of money. Talented. Natural leader. Everything goes his way.

Another guy. Good all-around cool guy. Has a good job. Good car. Lovely lady he is in a serious relationship with. People seem to like being around him. All star athlete. Good.

Me...I grew up in a ghetto innercity craphole of a neighborhood, sent to special education school when I wasn't even clinically retarded, bullied, beat up on, come from a poor background. Never had a girlfriend. Both guys and girls made fun of me when I was younger. Never had a decent job. Always broke. Depressed. I smoke cigarettes. I walk around aimlessly. I want to commit suicide.

So, before you give me any bull of "Do you have food? Clothes? Shelter? etc...", SO DO YOU, in case you havent noticed.

What I'm talking about...is the general quality of life God blesses people with. I know people with great lives. I know people with crap lives. I am one of them with crap lives. Why should I care about honoring God if he cheated me royally?

So what am I asking for? I suppose a prayer. I just want God to cut me a break and bless me abundantly, for the pain i had to deal with. Can a prayer accomplish that?
 
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Yes. But why should it?
 
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wwjd_kilden

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Our lives are lousy not because of God but because of sin.
This can be a direct result of our own sin, but it can also be caused directly or indirectly by living in a "fallen world."

There is no automatic "pray and you will be blessed" , as a matter of fact, Jesus said that following Him would make our lives difficult. We were never promised life would be easy. What we were promised is that if we finish the race, we will be united with God, and THEN it will be good, easy, joyful.
 
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coby

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I know a lot of succesful people with a nice house, car, good jobs, happily married. I'm divorced after a suicide attempt. They don't know Jesus and I do and I'm blessed and full of joy always now. If I felt sorry for myself for being single and noone who wanted me I looked at Jesus and asked Him for a hug and they can all be jealous because I found Mr. Perfect on the white horse who cares for me. People in Africa starve to death, I don't. I thank Him for the bike He gave me using my dad and for my wonderful 2 room apartment with 3 kids, not much effort to clean it up, praise the Lord! I thank Him for my kids. Start to thank Him for what you have. It was a blessing that I always was suicidal because noone who is succesful cares but I found out how I can die with Christ. If I see what the Bible says about rich people I'm very happy that I'm not rich.
The ones with the crap lives always become the best preachers.
There were 2 preachers. One had so many gifts, he sang, he could preach very well, he was a virtuous piano player. The other one had revival and people getting saved in his church. The one with all those gifts was jealous of him: Look at you. You can't preach. You can't do anything. Lol he just layed on the floor spending time with God and God did it through him.
If you start to get all the negative stuff out of your life you become someone who can't be unemployed, but has to be used by Him. I know so many former alcoholics and drugaddicts, when they converted they got a house, one got a wife and a great ministry on the street, not a load of money, but souls are getting saved.
 

crmvet

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Psalm 18:28
 

DaveTheRave

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Two bible passages come to mind that I feel you would benefit from.

Matthew 5:11-12 (TNIV)
[11] “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. [12] Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Jeremiah 29:11 (TNIV)
[11] For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


It is an unfortunate truth that life is easier for some than others. But in Jesus we all have a hope for a better future. A relationship with God is greatest treasure we could ever have and even if we may never be wealthy or popular or successful, God promises to always be there when we call upon his name. Which is the greatest blessing ever!
 
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iveseenworse

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Lord, i pray you give alexander some attention, he has needs. show him how people appear to have everything and easily. but behind the sceen they don't. if he has You he is rich. show him i pray.
 

sandtigeress

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You are blessed, a lot of blessed.
But I will gladly pray for you !

You have already overcome so much and that took a lot of talent.
Talent for self-reliance, talent for hard work,
talent of not listening to the wrong people,
talent for overcoming against the odds.

Those are great talents and certainly more then the 1
and you already made more with your talents.
You are blessed, blessed with a full life.


Money is not an easy talent, it just looks that way and it
would be good to have, no question about that,
but it has its own pitfalls, like greed, misery, social arrogance.

You were not cheated, god can go with you.

Yes I admit, I am grateful that I got a better start at life, that school bullying only happened
part of my school career. Yes I am grateful, that I had a loving family.
i did not have to grow so much, and yes i am grateful and I look at you
with admiration, because you grew so much more.

God loves you, he looks to you and knows, that you are a masterpiece,
one of those, we can look upon as examples, how much can be done.

So yes I will pray for you, my brother that you understand and continue
to experience the god, that does and will work in your blessed life,
to become the best you, you can be and to learn how much we can
learn from you.
 
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skylove7

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Lifting you in prayer
You are not alone :)
 
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skylove7

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#10
I'm sorry Alexander
I logged off to pray for you and feel your situation.
First off....God does not pick on you.
I understand how you feel....but truly if you put love first and change the way you look at things, I promise you God will enter your heart and you will be at peace
I was raised by two poor parents....I am not going to deceive anyone. I tell people straight up I am poor....but I do not desire to be wealthy especially I would not use someone to be rich
Why?
This is where happiness will be found when you change the way you look at things
For one...you are blessed because you are loved by God and you can give joy by loving
You are more blessed when you look at the stars or a rose in bloom and be happy to see it
There are billionares who are not grateful and I wouldn't trade places with them for anything
When I get sad
I feel like this
Life is short but Heaven is our gift forever

I am not blessed now
Because of what I have....be it more or less than others
But I am blessed NOW for all that I am to become!
In the name of Jesus
Love strong as you can tho we will make mistakes
You are not alone
Be strong!
I will continue praying for you :)

Smile!
You are alive!
Hold on and love strong!

Amen
 
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skylove7

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I know Alexander you're thinking....
Oh Lord, that Skylove7 is back again! lol

But quickly please let me share my favorite saying....

"I once complained I didn't have new shoes....til I met a man that didn't have any feet"


Let love be your wealth
It's the best kind! Lol

I'm gone lol I promise
I'm sorry
My prayers are with you
 
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Spoke to some people, both here and in real life.
It goes back to the parable of talents.

Some got 10. Some got 5. Some got 1. I got 1.
10 doubled to 20.
5 doubled to 10.
1 doubles to 2.

20 doubles to 40
10 doubles to 20
2 doubles to 4

40 doubles to 80
20 doubles to 40
4 doubles to 8

I believe, in my heart of heart of hearts, God cheated me royally.
I cant even count 1 talent I can be thankful for.

Specifically, I have two friends.
One grew up homeschooled, protected, in a nice neighborhood. Is married to a very beautiful young lady. Makes a lot of money. Talented. Natural leader. Everything goes his way.

Another guy. Good all-around cool guy. Has a good job. Good car. Lovely lady he is in a serious relationship with. People seem to like being around him. All star athlete. Good.

Me...I grew up in a ghetto innercity craphole of a neighborhood, sent to special education school when I wasn't even clinically retarded, bullied, beat up on, come from a poor background. Never had a girlfriend. Both guys and girls made fun of me when I was younger. Never had a decent job. Always broke. Depressed. I smoke cigarettes. I walk around aimlessly. I want to commit suicide.

So, before you give me any bull of "Do you have food? Clothes? Shelter? etc...", SO DO YOU, in case you havent noticed.

What I'm talking about...is the general quality of life God blesses people with. I know people with great lives. I know people with crap lives. I am one of them with crap lives. Why should I care about honoring God if he cheated me royally?

So what am I asking for? I suppose a prayer. I just want God to cut me a break and bless me abundantly, for the pain i had to deal with. Can a prayer accomplish that?
God's purpose isn't to serve you. Maybe if you came up for air on how tough your life was (not even IS), you can actually see God instead of stay absorbed in all things you.
 

levi85

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Lord please hear and answer our prayers. In Jesus name, Amen!
 

Violet24

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[h=3]Blessings for Obedience[/h]28 If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. [SUP]2 [/SUP]All these blessings will come on you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God:
[SUP]3 [/SUP]You will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]The fruit of your womb will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock—the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed.
[SUP]6 [/SUP]You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out.

[SUP]7 [/SUP]The Lord will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you. They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven.
[SUP]8 [/SUP]The Lord will send a blessing on your barns and on everything you put your hand to. The Lord your God will bless you in the land he is giving you.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]The Lord will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the Lord your God and walk in obedience to him. [SUP]10 [/SUP]Then all the peoples on earth will see that you are called by the name of the Lord, and they will fear you. [SUP]11 [/SUP]The Lord will grant you abundant prosperity—in the fruit of your womb, the young of your livestock and the crops of your ground—in the land he swore to your ancestors to give you.
[SUP]12 [/SUP]The Lord will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. [SUP]13 [/SUP]The Lord will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the Lord your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom. [SUP]14 [/SUP]Do not turn aside from any of the commands I give you today, to the right or to the left, following other gods and serving them.
 
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Thanks folks...(95% of you, at least).
I am grateful.

I hope things get better.
Hope the same for you.
 

happyface

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Hi Alexander, Hope your are ok, I understand. I have also lived in bad areas and still do, lived with mice running around in a damp cold flat for high rents etc etc, Sometimes we feel life has given us the rough card, but we must not get bitter. Its tough I know. But firstly don't look at others, you have to look at yourself, and do the best you can in life. my fiance smoked for years and recently had a massive stroke, he's still alive, thank god, but I still pray to god everyday for nothing else to happen.

You can do the same, just talk to god and look after yourself, maybe pack in smoking, because beleive me your health is so important. I pray to god that you get blessed, and start to beleive in yourself more. Amen take care
 
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Dear Lord, please work on his perspective. I ask that some day he'll figure out how gracious you truly are no matter how we compare to others. Amen.
 
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Miri

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Hi Alex, I found this just for you. Jabez was born in pain/born into a
painful situation. But he later asked God to bless him and keep him from evil/pain.
God granted his request. Just because a person is born into a difficult
upbringing it doesn't mean they have to wallow in it for the rest of their lives.

You may be thinking I am being unfeeling and don't care. It's because I do care
that I am posting this I also feel fully qualified to make this comment as I was
brought up in foster care of mixed race origin in a predominantly white
neighbourhood. My birth mother had schizophrenia. My upbringing was very
poor yet here I am thanking God for meeting my needs, knowing that I have
been saved, am secure in His love and I can testify fully to the goodness of
God.


1 Chronicles 4:9-10 AMP
[9] Jabez was honorable above his brothers; but his mother named him Jabez
sorrow maker, saying, Because I bore him in pain. [10] Jabez cried to the God
of Israel, saying, Oh, that You would bless me and enlarge my border, and that
Your hand might be with me, and You would keep me from evil so it might not
hurt me! And God granted his request.


Lord I pray for Alex that you would open his eyes to the wondrous life you have
provided for him. That one day he will come back on here and give a wonderful
testimony to all you have done for him.

Amen
 
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kaylagrl

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Spoke to some people, both here and in real life.
It goes back to the parable of talents.

Some got 10. Some got 5. Some got 1. I got 1.
10 doubled to 20.
5 doubled to 10.
1 doubles to 2.

20 doubles to 40
10 doubles to 20
2 doubles to 4

40 doubles to 80
20 doubles to 40
4 doubles to 8

I believe, in my heart of heart of hearts, God cheated me royally.
I cant even count 1 talent I can be thankful for.

Specifically, I have two friends.
One grew up homeschooled, protected, in a nice neighborhood. Is married to a very beautiful young lady. Makes a lot of money. Talented. Natural leader. Everything goes his way.

Another guy. Good all-around cool guy. Has a good job. Good car. Lovely lady he is in a serious relationship with. People seem to like being around him. All star athlete. Good.

Me...I grew up in a ghetto innercity craphole of a neighborhood, sent to special education school when I wasn't even clinically retarded, bullied, beat up on, come from a poor background. Never had a girlfriend. Both guys and girls made fun of me when I was younger. Never had a decent job. Always broke. Depressed. I smoke cigarettes. I walk around aimlessly. I want to commit suicide.

So, before you give me any bull of "Do you have food? Clothes? Shelter? etc...", SO DO YOU, in case you havent noticed.

What I'm talking about...is the general quality of life God blesses people with. I know people with great lives. I know people with crap lives. I am one of them with crap lives. Why should I care about honoring God if he cheated me royally?

So what am I asking for? I suppose a prayer. I just want God to cut me a break and bless me abundantly, for the pain i had to deal with. Can a prayer accomplish that?


I don't want to be too harsh with you. You are young and have a lot of life yet to live.Where you are now may not always be your circumstances. Many of us have similar life stories to tell. But whatever we have gone through there are others who have gone through worse. There are people who have survived concentration camps and been wrongly imprisoned. A friend of my family found out he had cancer this Christmas,at the same time he and his wife found out they were pregnant. He died 2wks ago,in his early 30s. His wife is left with two daughters and a baby on the way and the only provider now in the family. So we all have issues and struggles to deal with. We have to find the positive and look for the little blessings in life. The apostle Paul said "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do all this through him who gives me strength."

Another small point, I got married in my 40s,for the first time. I was in my late 30s when I dated for the first time. I watched the younger ones in my family marry and my friends. You can bet I felt pretty alone. But then I met a wonderful man who I am married to today. And you know what? Had I known I'd meet such a wonderful person I wouldn't have worried,I wouldn't have questioned God,I wouldn't have let depression keep me from enjoying life. So,we don't know what our life will be when it is all said and done. But while we are waiting we need to do what God called us to do.Help others where you can. Be a friend or support to someone else. Give what you can,even if it's just to pray for someone else.The more we look inward the more depressed we get. Do the best you can do and God will bless that. Not all of us will be rich,beautiful and have the perfect relationship. But sometimes what looks perfect on the outside may not be so perfect. People have lost all their money, relationships that seem perfect break apart. So learn to be content. Yes, some people have more but many,many have less. We have to count our blessings. It's not always easy for us to see sometimes but if you watch the news you will see how blessed you really are.
 
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Ariel82

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It troubles my heart to see you identify with the guy with just one talent, because the Bible says that 1 doesn't become 2...he buried the talent, the master came back and he had nothing to show. So the talent was taken from him and he was cast into hell.

Don't you see the path you are walking now is leading you to hell?

You are hardening your heart, demanding things you are Not entitled to,

Paul was beaten, imprisoned, starved yet considered himself blessed.

You are chasing after the world's riches, are they worth your soul?

Your post reeks of the sin of envy and pride. God doesn't owe you anything, but He loves you.

When you are ready to repent and turn back to Him, He is waiting with open arms.

Until you humble yourself to ask God for His forgiveness for your pride, envy and other sins, you will remain in darkness.