Spoke to some people, both here and in real life.
It goes back to the parable of talents.
Some got 10. Some got 5. Some got 1. I got 1.
10 doubled to 20.
5 doubled to 10.
1 doubles to 2.
20 doubles to 40
10 doubles to 20
2 doubles to 4
40 doubles to 80
20 doubles to 40
4 doubles to 8
I believe, in my heart of heart of hearts, God cheated me royally.
I cant even count 1 talent I can be thankful for.
Specifically, I have two friends.
One grew up homeschooled, protected, in a nice neighborhood. Is married to a very beautiful young lady. Makes a lot of money. Talented. Natural leader. Everything goes his way.
Another guy. Good all-around cool guy. Has a good job. Good car. Lovely lady he is in a serious relationship with. People seem to like being around him. All star athlete. Good.
Me...I grew up in a ghetto innercity craphole of a neighborhood, sent to special education school when I wasn't even clinically retarded, bullied, beat up on, come from a poor background. Never had a girlfriend. Both guys and girls made fun of me when I was younger. Never had a decent job. Always broke. Depressed. I smoke cigarettes. I walk around aimlessly. I want to commit suicide.
So, before you give me any bull of "Do you have food? Clothes? Shelter? etc...", SO DO YOU, in case you havent noticed.
What I'm talking about...is the general quality of life God blesses people with. I know people with great lives. I know people with crap lives. I am one of them with crap lives. Why should I care about honoring God if he cheated me royally?
So what am I asking for? I suppose a prayer. I just want God to cut me a break and bless me abundantly, for the pain i had to deal with. Can a prayer accomplish that?
It goes back to the parable of talents.
Some got 10. Some got 5. Some got 1. I got 1.
10 doubled to 20.
5 doubled to 10.
1 doubles to 2.
20 doubles to 40
10 doubles to 20
2 doubles to 4
40 doubles to 80
20 doubles to 40
4 doubles to 8
I believe, in my heart of heart of hearts, God cheated me royally.
I cant even count 1 talent I can be thankful for.
Specifically, I have two friends.
One grew up homeschooled, protected, in a nice neighborhood. Is married to a very beautiful young lady. Makes a lot of money. Talented. Natural leader. Everything goes his way.
Another guy. Good all-around cool guy. Has a good job. Good car. Lovely lady he is in a serious relationship with. People seem to like being around him. All star athlete. Good.
Me...I grew up in a ghetto innercity craphole of a neighborhood, sent to special education school when I wasn't even clinically retarded, bullied, beat up on, come from a poor background. Never had a girlfriend. Both guys and girls made fun of me when I was younger. Never had a decent job. Always broke. Depressed. I smoke cigarettes. I walk around aimlessly. I want to commit suicide.
So, before you give me any bull of "Do you have food? Clothes? Shelter? etc...", SO DO YOU, in case you havent noticed.
What I'm talking about...is the general quality of life God blesses people with. I know people with great lives. I know people with crap lives. I am one of them with crap lives. Why should I care about honoring God if he cheated me royally?
So what am I asking for? I suppose a prayer. I just want God to cut me a break and bless me abundantly, for the pain i had to deal with. Can a prayer accomplish that?