Today I just found out my husband of 7 years has cheated on me. We have a toddler and I am 6 months pregnant. He cheated on me 2 years ago allowing oral sex by my cousin on him, and in the past 6 months he has gone to strip clubs. The last time he went he had intercourse at the club. He confessed this to me willingly according to him so I can forgive his torment, and so God can forgive him. He vowes he loves me, he cried with me and seems repented. Both of us used to be strong leaders in the youth ministry, but its been 3 years we stopped to focus on our son and work. As much as it hurts how can I trust him? How do i get these thoughts out of my mind? I dont feel beautiful no more.. why my cousin? how do I deal with that, help, Im so hurt, cant stop crying, I feel like dying....Lord where are you???