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Hello, I'm just 23 years old. I'n the past 5 years I have lost a multitude of family members - 2 Grandfathers, an Aunt, and my father to suicide about years ago. During this my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer (but is now in remission - thank jesus). It has left my mother and brother (13) in a position where they are financially unstable. I have put my college plans on hold (about 25 hours away from a bachelors) and decided to fufill my dream of being a police officer. I put myself through the academy and graduated this past december. I was hired on by a small police department and things were really looking great. However after a month they let me go - they said they felt my ambitions to work in other units (K9, Narcotics, SWAT) were something that their department couldnt fufil (small town departments dont need those types of units)l and that they felt I would leave after a year or two. The department said they wanted someone for the long haul (10-20 years) and no longer wanted to invest money in me.
Now I have been out of work for 3 weeks, I am struggling to pay my rent and I am confused on what to do. My confidence has been shot. Police jobs in and around my area are dried up. I prayed to go during this whole ordeal that I will allow him to put me where he thought was the right department for me. However I am very discouraged, confused, and simply uncertain of my future. I have had so much advice from other people telling me what to do. I am so confused, and I dont know what to do. Sometimes I doubt if God even wants me to be a police officer? I just want to be in the right position.
Now I have been out of work for 3 weeks, I am struggling to pay my rent and I am confused on what to do. My confidence has been shot. Police jobs in and around my area are dried up. I prayed to go during this whole ordeal that I will allow him to put me where he thought was the right department for me. However I am very discouraged, confused, and simply uncertain of my future. I have had so much advice from other people telling me what to do. I am so confused, and I dont know what to do. Sometimes I doubt if God even wants me to be a police officer? I just want to be in the right position.