downtime, I agree, it is usually a positive step forward in talking with a pastor or counselor. Depression can definitely be a downward spiral, that leads to deeper & darker depression. If you are meditating on all negative things in your mind throughout the day, than all your going to see & feel is negativity within your mind & spirit. Ultimately, it takes the Lord's word & His healing presence to bring the freedom your need from this depression etc...I just want to encourage you to find your bible & begin reading the gospels & psalms. There is healing power in the word of God! He wants to "breath new life in You" & begin renewing your mind & thoughts. Saturate your mind, soul & spirit with the word daily. 2 Corinthians 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
Phillipians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.