Some of you know something bad happened to me last Sunday w/ a supposed "friend".
I had a good day today but, struggling tonight a little bit.
I have actually been praying for this guy who did what he did to me.
There's a big part of me that wants to message him and ask him why he crossed the line. I have a bit of anger within me towards him and he had the nerve to message me the day after saying he hopes that everything is still good btwn he and I. Why would he think that? Would he think I could easily just forget about it and let it go w/o questioning and still accept and treat him the same way? Umm, no. I think he finally got the hint at how much he did affected me bc I ignored all his messages and just yesterday, he messaged me asking me to please call him when I get the chance bc he'd like to talk to me. I don't want to speak to him though.
There's no reason for it. We had JUST had a talk the day prior about trust and he knew I struggled with the issue as I know he did too and I remember he told me that he trusted me and I felt I could trust him. He had opened up w/ me and shared some things w/ me the day prior. I wish I had just seen the warning signs but I had no clue.
But, for the life of me, I just don't get it. My mind is so confused and I feel betrayed by someone I called a friend, by someone I felt I could trust, by someone I thought I could open up to, hang out w/ and have fun w/. I just am not able to wrap my mind around this whole situation and am struggling w/ this. I have never had a friend do this to me before and am really struggling w/ it.
I've noticed that this incident is already affecting me though. I noticed yesterday when I went out to run some errands that, I kinda backed away from a few people that I felt uncomfortable around and just wanted to get thru w/ what I was doing and leave. I've been feeling more nervous around people I don't know. It's not every time I go out or everywhere I go when I'm around people but, I've noticed it.
Also asking prayer for this guy though. Not sure what to ask to pray for, for him, but, please pray for him too.
I had a good day today but, struggling tonight a little bit.
I have actually been praying for this guy who did what he did to me.
There's a big part of me that wants to message him and ask him why he crossed the line. I have a bit of anger within me towards him and he had the nerve to message me the day after saying he hopes that everything is still good btwn he and I. Why would he think that? Would he think I could easily just forget about it and let it go w/o questioning and still accept and treat him the same way? Umm, no. I think he finally got the hint at how much he did affected me bc I ignored all his messages and just yesterday, he messaged me asking me to please call him when I get the chance bc he'd like to talk to me. I don't want to speak to him though.
There's no reason for it. We had JUST had a talk the day prior about trust and he knew I struggled with the issue as I know he did too and I remember he told me that he trusted me and I felt I could trust him. He had opened up w/ me and shared some things w/ me the day prior. I wish I had just seen the warning signs but I had no clue.
But, for the life of me, I just don't get it. My mind is so confused and I feel betrayed by someone I called a friend, by someone I felt I could trust, by someone I thought I could open up to, hang out w/ and have fun w/. I just am not able to wrap my mind around this whole situation and am struggling w/ this. I have never had a friend do this to me before and am really struggling w/ it.
I've noticed that this incident is already affecting me though. I noticed yesterday when I went out to run some errands that, I kinda backed away from a few people that I felt uncomfortable around and just wanted to get thru w/ what I was doing and leave. I've been feeling more nervous around people I don't know. It's not every time I go out or everywhere I go when I'm around people but, I've noticed it.
Also asking prayer for this guy though. Not sure what to ask to pray for, for him, but, please pray for him too.
