I will pray for you Jay. Take comfort in the fact that if you did not hear His call, or feel His Spirit at all, you would NOT care or feel anxiety about it. The Lord will burn away the dross in our hearts, and purify us for His Glory and our good. I can attest that this can be a painful, albeit necessary process the Holy Spirit will do.
Holy Father, please show Jay Your incredible Grace today, let him feel Your Presence and cause him to remember just how much you love him, and are ready to hug him back into the knowledge that You ARE his Father. In Jesus Precious Name I pray.