my dear brother,
Boy OH Boy, that slime, that serpent has done a job on you! He has made you believe! You DO have faith!, all you need to do now is place it on the one that loves you, and take it away from the one who has been feeding this destructive thoughts. Our sister in Christ, TemporaryCircumstances, posted a short, bulls-eye response. I wish I could be like that, but if I ever answer with a one liner, I would probably blow up inside. So, I'm taking no chances. Job is the Book for you now. Violet24, Ariel, and Depleted posted beautiful responses for you.
Before I go a little deeper to re-construct your initial post, rest assured, I am not judging you, nor am I mocking you. The only reason I have felt compelled to embark in this long winded response, is to point out where you have been played into believing a lie. You say your life has been a tragic story since your conception. Well, welcome to the Human Race. This is not a story that belongs to you exclusively, this is all of us story. Its called Sin, of the original kind. The one that we have all inherited from our former father Adam, and we are all born infected with it.
You write; "I have NOBODY and NOTHING in my life", and "I have always believed that God was testing my faith". Here is a relevant question: If you are so sure you have nobody and nothing in your life, how can you believe that that there is a God testing a faith that is not there? It just begs the question, Who is really there?
You say you have always been vigilant and watchful and aware of this broken world. My question for you is: what is it that you are vigilant and watchful for? and, who told you the world was broken? what I mean is, If there is nobody and nothing in your life, what compels you to be vigilant?, and, For what reason?
and finally, the big whopper, the Big Enchilada, your conclusion is: "I am pretty sure I have a mental disorder or brain damage". I can just see the Devil himself high fiving his minions on a victory lap around the sacred ground of your mind. Slam dunk! HE'S MINE NOW. I have made him believe that he is useless, damaged and unfit. No "goody two shoes" Christian will ever sprout out of this one.
Well, my dear brother, I have very, very, good news for you. HE IS RISEN! HE LIVES! HE CONQUERED!. He did everything for us that we could never have done on our own, and now, in Him, with His power operating in us, thru His Holy Spirit as permanent resident inside our mind, heart and soul, we have been made recipients of this awesome power that flows from the throne of glory and into every area of our lives, to take dominion of anything the Devil throws at you, and rebuke him in the name of Jesus, The blessed name of Jesus, the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end of all things created in heaven and in Earth. DO NOT believe the lies of you mortal enemy. You are the son of the most High God. re-born in the spirit to rule as kings and priests. You are a jewel on His Crown. You have a crisp, sharp and Holy mind just waiting to be claimed for His Glory. You have the mind of Christ, now GO CLAIM IT! Get your face out of FACEBOOK and get it into THE BOOK. THE BOOK IS A LIVING ORGANISM! It has power! We have been told to EAT IT! Now, go enjoy your meal, and, "Bon Appetite" brother. be blessed. im4gv2.
