It's going to be okay. Having thoughts of suicide, especially on certain medications can happen. As long as you know in your heart it's not something you want to do, and you don't act on the thought, you're going to be okay. I've thought of suicide a lot simply because it's happened in my family, but thinking something and doing something aren't always the same thing. Take a deep breath, and with all you strength and all your faith say outloud, "GET BEHIND ME SATAN". Then smile, think of the greatest thing in your life, and sing a praise to Jesus, even if it's a song you have to make up. You'll be amazed at how much more at peace your mind will be. If the thoughts intensify, or start negatively impacting your life too much, please get help. There is always help available. PM me and I'll give you my phone number and talk to you through it if need be. Just, don't let it overwhelm you or cause you to harm yourself. I'll be praying for you.