I always try to see positive, but these days I'm very depressed. I fear for the future without my partner. I fear not getting a suitable move. Everything seems scary. I do suffer with anxiety alot and cant seem to move forward. I haven't got anyone to talk to where I live, I feel as though I'm being persecuted by others and their narrow mindness. Yes I've had to battle my own illness as well as putting up with things. Its raining as I speak and feel it's Like my tears. Yes I could cry a river. But I'm scared I can't cope and become a recluse if my partner takes poorly again. I must admit he's lost weight and I see a big change since his stroke. Everything I write is anxiety based, its all part of my illness and it's like waiting for a miracle to happen. I know I see with neive eyes sometimes and thats why I'm finding life hard.
My partner gets really depressed which doesn't help, he hates it where we live, and he does have good reason, people really upset us. I hate people with the way they try to go out of their way to upset us. What is this life about. I'M PRAYING TO GET A BUNGALOW, I feel as though I have no help or support any where, that's why the only place I can think is to be nearer my parents. I've been on phone and they said that hardly any bungalows come up there, I've been on list for 4 years 8 months. why is life so hard. I have walking isues and ive put on weight, that's why I get down. I know someone will say don't worry Jesus loves you, but I just want some happy times without feeling I can't help my partner. I worry we will always be sad and then die with all these awful neighbours. I DON'T EXPECT ANYONE TO ANSWER ME. caps sorry,
My partner gets really depressed which doesn't help, he hates it where we live, and he does have good reason, people really upset us. I hate people with the way they try to go out of their way to upset us. What is this life about. I'M PRAYING TO GET A BUNGALOW, I feel as though I have no help or support any where, that's why the only place I can think is to be nearer my parents. I've been on phone and they said that hardly any bungalows come up there, I've been on list for 4 years 8 months. why is life so hard. I have walking isues and ive put on weight, that's why I get down. I know someone will say don't worry Jesus loves you, but I just want some happy times without feeling I can't help my partner. I worry we will always be sad and then die with all these awful neighbours. I DON'T EXPECT ANYONE TO ANSWER ME. caps sorry,