Prayers for Rods health

He can't eat due to the tummy cancer, it awful he just said he will loose more weight and his body will pack up, and I'm still here. I feel it's so unreal

Happy, consider yourself in good company. People lashed out at Jesus when things didn't go the way they had planned. Regardless of who Rod is now, he is the love of your life- the man you married. Remember that and this too shall pass. Be patient in your sufferings- the reward will be great. Still praying for you both.

Happy, I don't know whether or not you have read my story on this site but I have had many (literally thousands) of times when I felt angry, crying out to God asking the "Why Me?" question. I have learned that for me (and perhaps not you), anger is a selfish emotion which only helps me to feel justified, vindicated, or better after blowing off some steam. Instead, I pray through my angry times- those days when I am waiting for God to perform a miracle or do something which is simply amazing which would change my situation. Reading the Psalms has been a help; memorizing a few of them is even better therapy. Lots of love and prayers still headed your way; Didymus

Something from Spurgeon that might help you and Rod.

“For there stood by me this night the angel of God.” Acts 27:23


Tempest and long darkness, coupled with imminent risk of shipwreck, had brought the crew of the vessel into a sad case; one man alone among them remained perfectly calm, and by his word the rest were reassured. Paul was the only man who had heart enough to say, “Sirs, be of good cheer.” There were veteran Roman legionaries on board, and brave old mariners, and yet their poor Jewish prisoner had more spirit than they all. He had a secret Friend who kept his courage up. The Lord Jesus despatched a heavenly messenger to whisper words of consolation in the ear of his faithful servant, therefore he wore a shining countenance and spake like a man at ease.


If we fear the Lord, we may look for timely interpositions when our case is at its worst. Angels are not kept from us by storms, or hindered by darkness. Seraphs think it no humiliation to visit the poorest of the heavenly family. If angel’s visits are few and far between at ordinary times, they shall be frequent in our nights of tempest and tossing. Friends may drop from us when we are under pressure, but our intercourse with the inhabitants of the angelic world shall be more abundant; and in the strength of love-words, brought to us from the throne by the way of Jacob’s ladder, we shall be strong to do exploits. Dear reader, is this an hour of distress with you? then ask for peculiar help. Jesus is the angel of the covenant, and if his presence be now earnestly sought, it will not be denied. What that presence brings in heart-cheer those remember who, like Paul, have had the angel of God standing by them in a night of storm, when anchors would no longer hold, and rocks were nigh.


“O angel of my God, be near,
Amid the darkness hush my fear;
Loud roars the wild tempestuous sea,
Thy presence, Lord, shall comfort me.”

Dear Lynn. Thank you. Im realising a lot about myself today. I am to placid to stand up for myself, this has been a big issue in my life for years.maybe God wants me to be more confident and believe in myself as a person more, dispite my cheerfulness. Rod went mad today with my phone because it played up for him when he tried to take a photo of the dog. Every time he tried to take a photo it didn't work. Maybe I confused him because there was an easier way to just press the button on top of phone. But over the years he's smashed more things in temper. Today he threw my phone in the woods in temper. People watching him shouting. In those situations I just turn to jelly because he can be very vocal. The phone went logged in between some big logs. I feel very mad that he just did that, but Rods temper is the same has his dads was.He's tired and I feel I could be a better person sometimes for my own self and to get by in life. I don't want others to think I'm a walk over. There is none I can talk to where I live. Rods health issues are like he's on borrowed time, he says bad things to me about past boyfriend's and just saying you will be OK with a past person. I've stayed faithful for 18 years and I feel very down in myself. I cry a lot and feel trapped with things but I guess I need to grow. I do care and Love Rod but I feel very upset at times, because our time is precious together, I wish he had my temperament sometimes. But I guess we are all different. I get so tired and feel very like in a state of confusion, and feel like I'm just here for nothing at times.