I've sinned.

I feel like I'm in a dangerous place.

I'm having a very difficult time connecting with God. Partly, I believe, because of rebellion in the past couple weeks. I spent way too much time playing video games and barely sought Him at all when I knew I should have. My heart seems so far away from God and His desires, and I'm having a hard time coming back to Him.

I've gotten prayer about my mistake and have chosen to cut out video games. But I notice something big is still off.

I recall past intimacy and past mindsets and past responses, and I am nowhere near those places at this moment.

Everything is bland and dull. I feel I have no love in my heart, yet I need to uphold some sort of appearance due to my position.

I need prayer.

I will definitely be praying! If I may say so, that is completely normal. It isn't "holding up appearances" it can be sincere, true worship even if you don't feel the intimacy or response that you sometimes do. Faith is not a feeling, it is an action. It is making a conscious desire to follow the LORD and trust Him. It is SUCH a difficult place to be, but if you continue to pray and praise and read the scriptures even when you don't feel like it, that feeling of closeness will come again

Praying brother

I don't want it to be this way. Perhaps it is just pride that I'm dealing with, thinking I'm unable to be vulnerable with others around me.

Thank you, Willie-T.

I want to get back into the right frame of mind.

Lord, please help this person to repent of sins, turn from them, and live righteously. Cause this person to put You first in all they do and really seek Your will. Come close to this person and help them to know that You will never forsake them and will endlessly love them. In Christ's Name, Amen

Ive been there before with the video games issue... The issue is that you at some point started to conform to the world, this is why you feel so distant. In Romans 12:2 it talks about how we need to renew our minds to the will of God, and how we should not be conformed to the world...When you start living for HIM, and not you first, you will start to see things change. Matthew 16:24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me."...I learned a secret in my own walk.. When you start to make personal sacrifices for God, like sacrificing time, wants, desires, and various other things Just for God he honors them, and he starts to draw close, and i mean like real close, Especially when you start doing his will and living on his word.
I will pray for you though, but you need to get back in there.

Come back by faith----not feelings---when I was on drugs years ago----I went through weirder stuff than that---just press in by faith---do your prayer time---do your Bible study----your feelings will return...

Luke 1:37 and Philippians 4:13..

Remember, no matter how far we've walked off God's path, it only takes one step to be back on it.

This is a relationship. There will be peaks and valleys. God says repeatedly to persevere until the end.

Praying for you

Your okay Aephus..

Whats encouraging is that you are actually concerned about your relationship with God and that shows that you do care about your current state and are willing to examine your life and conduct towards God. Everybody goes through seasons of doubt and though you dont feel his presence it is knowing that God is with you and will never forsake or leave you. Thats a promise God made with you when became his child. A true testimony of one of Gods children is that they constantly and always are concerned about there spiritual well being.

Father God bless Aephus, to have a good relationship with you. Give your strength and wisdom to be in your presence always. Please bless. In Jesus name, Amen!

Glory to GOD

some wonderful advice here...

also remember to look to the needs of others during times of feeling the stress and strain
of this world...this will always bring us closer to our Heavenly Father, when we reach out and
love others, even above our own feelings of failure, it's proof positive that Christ has shared
His grace with you...

Praying for you a short prayer
long enough though
to please our Lord
and make Him to give you
what you need and what you want.<3

I pray for God guidance and wisdom may your heart be enlightened