This is kind of a good outlet for me in this case.
There is a sin that I constantly struggle with which I won't repeat right now since those who know me most likely know what it is. I was dealing with it yesterday and failing, and when I was in the middle of committing the sin I had a thought of relying on God to get it done.
I froze. I panicked. I prayed not only for God to forgive me and that I never do that sin again, but also that God forgive me for ever thinking He was ever affiliated with something like that. It's not true, it's never been true, it will never be, and I was horrified.
I sat there, wondering if in that moment I had committed the unforgivable sin. Blaspheming the holy spirit is that, but I don't think so. Yet here I am still wondering in my brain, "did I!?!" I think part of me knows I didn't and God has forgiven me, and hopefully that horrible moment will be the thing to let me cold turkey and never do that sin again.
I just would like prayer that, when I do have a sin I commit, that I don't immediately go back to the unforgivable sin worry. It's bad enough doing something so egregious, let alone wondering if you're doomed for eternity to boot.
There is a sin that I constantly struggle with which I won't repeat right now since those who know me most likely know what it is. I was dealing with it yesterday and failing, and when I was in the middle of committing the sin I had a thought of relying on God to get it done.
I froze. I panicked. I prayed not only for God to forgive me and that I never do that sin again, but also that God forgive me for ever thinking He was ever affiliated with something like that. It's not true, it's never been true, it will never be, and I was horrified.
I sat there, wondering if in that moment I had committed the unforgivable sin. Blaspheming the holy spirit is that, but I don't think so. Yet here I am still wondering in my brain, "did I!?!" I think part of me knows I didn't and God has forgiven me, and hopefully that horrible moment will be the thing to let me cold turkey and never do that sin again.
I just would like prayer that, when I do have a sin I commit, that I don't immediately go back to the unforgivable sin worry. It's bad enough doing something so egregious, let alone wondering if you're doomed for eternity to boot.