Crumbling

I did something stupid and I think it just made matters worse and I don't know what to do. I should have trusted that Jesus would hear my crys and prayers and fix the situation and instead I was impatient and panicked and dod something dumb and I dint know how to fix it or if it could have even have ever been fixed. I'm just tired of hurting and being hurt by the one I loved and father of my children but didn't seem my prayers where being given heard. What do I do

Well it's pretty difficult to offer advice without knowing more. Perhaps you are bringing it on yourself. Perhaps you attract predators. But you yourself admit that you took things into your own hands, and now things are worse. We can't make bad choices and sit around waiting for God to make it all better. It's called consequences and God Does allow us to face them.
It's like years ago a woman was on death row, but became a very outspoken Christian in prison (or perhaps before being caught, but after the murder). Large groups of people protested her death because she became a Christian. But, obviously, this did not work. She took action and had to face the consequences. God allowed this to happen. He did not intervene and spare her. It should be a lesson to all Christians.
I, myself, have had many bad choices and had a whole slew of consequences as a result. For example i ignored my health for years, despite there being signs i should see a doctor. Due to my Choice to be negligent i have suffered for 8 years with a myriad of health issues, multiple surgeries and countless ER visits hospital stays and doctor visits. To this day i am having direct consequences of my negligence 15+ years ago. God has not spared me. So perhaps the better prayer is asking God for the wisdom, guidance and strength to know what to do and the ability to live with what happens.
And people have free will. God will not override anothers free will in order to grant you your will. This may be another reason your prayers feel unanswered.

It's not easy to say. Some things can't be fixed. Some can, but may benefit from advice from people with similar experience.

I hope you can find some way to get more clear help. Sorry to hear you're struggling.

We're human. We're stupid. We make matters worse. We don't know what to do. Well we do but we don't do that because God is just too slow sometimes. But in the end it takes longer to correct the screw up we made. Silly stupid us.

You're going thru what is called the human condition. You're not off you're normal.

You have to stop panicking and let it play out. Bridges are burnt in an instant but rebuilt over time. You've seen what happens when you get impatient and take things into your own hands. Now, get out of the way and let God fix this and pray for the means to persevere thru to that.

Stop being impatient and impulsive. Wait on GOD'S timing..

I am trying to be patient and wait on God's timing but matters seem to get worse as time goes by, it's been over a year I've prayed for this constantly

Lord bless Suzy4, in Jesus gracious name, Amen!

Thank you. I'm very amazed at how Jesus allows someone to continue to hurt me aND my kids and live happily while all I do is pray that our situation gets better but I think now I must be praying for something thats not meant to be

God doesn't always answer our prayers they way we want him to! But that doesn't mean he has abandoned you, just that his plan is better. Pray to know God better, instead of rubbing his belly to get luck, or what you want! God is not a figurine of Buddha, a magic genie or a sugar daddy! He is the sovereign Creator of the universe, the King of kings and Lord of Lords!

Finally, are you being abused by your husband? If so, send me a pm, and we can talk about some options. Praying for much good to come out if this situation. See Romans 7:28

Thank you for your words. I just want my family back together but maybe that's not God's plan.
Abused? Not physically but most definitely emotionally and mentally

Joseph was tossed into a pit, sold, and falsely accused; yet God remembered Him-- and those who trapped him.
Moses murdered a man and fled, but God found Him.
Jeremiah wept for his people while in exile; apparently he died before seeing restoration.
(Still, his words remind us that God is the Potter and we are the clay.)
Jesus was dead; seemingly the largest failure of a rebel ever. Yet look at Him now
Saul called himself the worst of sinners and yet he said God saved him to show that there is hope for anyone.

As for Suzy, the same Lord who is Potter, Redeemer, the King of Kings-- He still Works in her situation.

Praise the Lord! He Works in mine.