Pushed too far

Ok I feel like blowing up right now. I have this feeling and thoughts that I wish something would happen to the father of my.kids because I'm at the breaking point and he disgusts me. I dont choose to call him my husband because he does not act like one at all, he use to but this little girl he's talking to at work has taken control of him, his thoughts his actions everything. I honestly feel like the devil has won the fight for his soul.

Lord please give your knowledge and wisdom, and bless him you be glorified in his Suzy4's life and family. In Jesus name, Amen!

You have no idea how many times I have sat hoping with all my heart something awful would happen to so many people. Especially when I had to go to court for fights my parents were having and when I had to make sure they never crossed paths because they were threatening to kill eachother. Ugh I hated them. They made me life hell.

But, Look back on your life.
Think of everything you have done wrong than look up and think of how you would feel towards yourself if you were the Heavenly Father.
He does not focus on wanting to get back. Unlike us He sees the future while we are so caught up in now.

So while I can imagine it sucks, a lot, there is not only now, try not to focus on how awful it is now and try to look forward.

God owns our souls and He's NOT in the business of giving, selling or loaning them to satan.

I’m so sorry to hear that, mama. My heart ached as I read your post, and I wish I could give you a hug. I know how difficult and frustrating it must be for you. I just said a prayer for you and your husband, and I hope that God will provide the strength and peace you need at this time. Have you ever considered talking with a counselor? Do you think that's something that might be helpful for you personally? Do you think your husband might consider going with you? Hope you guys work through this soon. Sending hugs & prayers your way!

Praying for your situation