Just as Christ is received through our faith, so is the infilling of the Holy Spirit. Once you surrender your life to Christ and choose to live for Him, ask the Holy Spirit to fill you with His wisdom, power and especially love. His work is to build Christ in you and deal with those things in your life that would block this. Give yourself completely.
Remember, you receive by believing you have. Begin to praise Jesus that He has filled you with His Spirit, and experience yourself as filled now. You will notice things begin to change - the most common thing will be you will feel His love for you in a greater way, which will cause you to love him even more. His power, wisdom, works and healing begins with love. Everything will come from that place. The scriptures will even open up for you as you read them with new understanding.
God bless you, and I join the others here in praying for this.
Joi