God loves you, and has not left, and never will. Once I did the laundry for my biological Dad, and just went ahead and poured clorox straight onto his dark Indigo Work Jeans that were brand new. He wore them to work, and I looked and said, oh Im sorry paw, he said, "it's okay, they wear them like that, and wore them to work. " God dosn't give us condemnation, that's a guilt trip from hell. Were convicted to turn away from the sins. If we do he is faithful and welcomes us with open arms. "Just like the prodigal son." Psalm 91:15