I have become addicted to something that I really hate doing and I have been a slave to this addiction for a long time. There have been times that I fight it back and I manage to hold it off but more often than not it has reigned over me. I try to stop then when I do for a substantial amount of time the desire of doing it just presses and presses until I eventually end up doing it. The thing I do is very much a sin and I know the lord does not like it and am greatful for every moment I can still exist under his grace but I am very worried about my salvation and my future in general. I have talked to my pastor at church about and although they did address it as an issue, I didn't receive much help. Its becoming worse, lately I have even skipped church in allure of this addiction. I don't really care much for the church I go to either though because I just feel so... ...secluded, like everyone there has their own group and Im not really apart of it - instead Im just a guy who goes there but Im not of them. I feel separated in that regard. Im not blaming the church for this though..I just really need help.