I believe I asked prayer tues night about driving into the city Wed.
Started out ok but started getting nervous when the gps went haywire and took me all around. Did get there ok. The guys unloaded everything and I left. Heading back was a nightmare and I started getting even more nervous. By the time I dropped the van off and got home, I started shaking uncontrollably both inside and out. Yesterday the rest of the day was horrible. I couldn't calm down, was upset and depressed and had negative thoughts. Took a xanax and was much better. Last night I woke up at 3am in a panic thinking that I had to go to the city again but I had told the boss what had happened and he was going to drive. Thurs -- most of the day I was fine tho I had moments of the fear come up again but now... I had woken up at 2am and am feeling so nervous that I can't shake the feeling and can't go back to sleep.
I dont know what to do.
If if you can pray that I get over this and it just goes away for good but if u can also pray that my friend will understand that I'm not making this up that this really has affected me tremendously. I feel he's angry or upset with me bc he got me this job and I extremely appreciate it. I just had no idea that it was going to affect me like this. Yes, I never liked driving in the city, but I wanted to work and needed money so I did it. I pushed myself and did everything asked of me even though I did make a few mistakes. I did my best each time I drove. I just want my friend to understand that and wish he'd talk to me.
Started out ok but started getting nervous when the gps went haywire and took me all around. Did get there ok. The guys unloaded everything and I left. Heading back was a nightmare and I started getting even more nervous. By the time I dropped the van off and got home, I started shaking uncontrollably both inside and out. Yesterday the rest of the day was horrible. I couldn't calm down, was upset and depressed and had negative thoughts. Took a xanax and was much better. Last night I woke up at 3am in a panic thinking that I had to go to the city again but I had told the boss what had happened and he was going to drive. Thurs -- most of the day I was fine tho I had moments of the fear come up again but now... I had woken up at 2am and am feeling so nervous that I can't shake the feeling and can't go back to sleep.
I dont know what to do.
If if you can pray that I get over this and it just goes away for good but if u can also pray that my friend will understand that I'm not making this up that this really has affected me tremendously. I feel he's angry or upset with me bc he got me this job and I extremely appreciate it. I just had no idea that it was going to affect me like this. Yes, I never liked driving in the city, but I wanted to work and needed money so I did it. I pushed myself and did everything asked of me even though I did make a few mistakes. I did my best each time I drove. I just want my friend to understand that and wish he'd talk to me.