Crying all day </3

Not to be rude, but the title of your topic is "Crying all day" and you said "today my heart is breaking" which gave the impression that you were emotionally disturbed. Losing weight, doing good in school, living on your own is great, but I'm sure you give the real credit to Christ for the fulfillment in life. People can be thriving by those standards and still be miserable and empty on the inside because true siginfigance comes from the eternal purpose in life we get from Christ.

I wish you the best, take my advice from before, don't take it, whatever.

I wish you the best, take my advice from before, don't take it, whatever.

I do get my purpose from Christ, haha. Nowhere did I say that I didn't. I only become miserable in this situation.

I can still be crying all day and still be thriving.

Lol, what? How nice of you.....

Anyways, thanks for your advice guys! I've been getting counseled by my counselor who also says walking away and finding healing for myself is good as well as my spiritual mentors. As well as the majority of you!

Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement![/I][/COLOR]

Well, look. I gave what I thought was a decent pice of advice and all I got was grief. I was being nice and caring, but now I've been picked apart I'm just done with arguing. Sorry for giving you advice, I won't let it happen again.

Hi my lovely...Have you thought it is God who is calling you to break these ties, is He calling you to rest and heal in Him,...Be still and know I am God, that`s what He says...Go rest in Him, give Him your broken heart, spend time under His loving wing, He will heal all your shattered peaces and bring you out of this mess into the BEA~UTI~FUL women He has created you to be...You will be courageous and strong in our Almighty God, brand new and this my sweet sister will be a great testimony that you will be able to rejoice from the roof tops...God said Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand...Take comfort in the Lord, He will restore you...xox...

Derek, my older brother, responded to my text. I did reach out to him afterwards. I basically just said, "Thanks for all that you did to make today happen! Sorry, but I just can't stay! Love you. And I want to just say, I hope you are not mad. I tried saying bye to you but could tell you were a bit upset. I did not mean to make you upset. I needed to do this for myself and still wanted to make that appearance to show that excitement and respect. I do love you!"

He responded with, "Ok. I think we need to talk at some point."

I've been crying all day yesterday and I called my mentors. They became really close to me a year and a half ago and they aren't that much older than me but I see them as my spiritual parents and they have been nothing but supportive.

They suggested that I write out a letter to my parents and send it to them to let them know that I am in fact pulling away. And to Derek and Lauren (Lauren is Derek's wife), to write a letter but actually sit down with Derek and Lauren and read it to them.

I feel emotionally sick. I'm sad and heartbroken.

IN all honesty, I don't care if I hurt my dad. He is merely a man that has been placed in my life. But, my Mom, on the other hand....I'm crushed and hurt that I'm walking away from her. But, I need to. I need to in order to get better. She is the NICEST woman you'll ever meet. However, I have so much anger towards her for choosing my Dad over me. For looking at me being abused and turning her head. I can't have someone like that in my life. Yes, she may not have abused me but allowing the abuse to happen is abuse in itself.