I have been feeling very depressed lately. I don't want to do anything. My best comfort is to listen to Blue by Eiffel 65 over and over. I feel like my heart has been blown up into a million pieces so there's nothing there now and it is over something that is so insignificant but is very significant to me that I cannot get over the disapointment and discouragement. I want very much to die to go to heaven. I don't matter to most people. I feel very depressed and sad.
I remember feeling pain like this 24hrs a day.
And you know where the pain come from, disappointment, needs not met, and analysing too
much. It is why people who think too much rather than enjoying the moment, suffer the most.
Emotions and sadness are just that, part of the puzzel of life but do not define it.
Jesus came to the most difficult place on earth and died, to say, He feels our pain, He knows
our loneliness and despair and says I can help you. When God comes calling like this we need
to listen and feel what He is saying. Peace, love, grace, victory, healing, restoration, forgiveness,
life. In the darkest places His grace can go, when all abandon us, like the disciples did when He
was at His biggest trial, still love brings us through.
I used to see sadness in everything, and defeat where these was actually life, until Jesus started
to show me, His ways bring life, His word brings healing, His hope, lifts us from death into life itself.
So I encourage you to see new beginnings, new love and new insight.
May the Lord meet you in your pain, so you can share His despair when we left Him, yet He came
to show us He hurts as well and can bear it for us. Grace and peace to you in Jesus's name, Amen