I Really Need Prayer -- Really Need Peace Right Now

I am still struggling w/ this whole thing w/ this guy that I used to date. I thought I was 100% healed until today. Then the anger/frustration and hurt came all back.

I wrote on the "Notes" on my phone a text I was planning on sending him, But, I knew it was really harsh, so, since I went to the park today w/ my dog and we went on a nice hike, I took that time to pray. Not only for him and me, but for various different people as well. It was a good prayer time w/ God But, while praying, I asked God if I should send him this text or not and asked him to please give me an answer within 2 hours. Well, God did better then that. He gave me an answer within 5-10 minutes and his answer was no, don't send it, so I didn't.

God is still keeping the door open to this guy and I know why, well, there's several reasons why but, I just need the patience to continue to wait as God has this under his control. I know he does.

Praying today while walking w/ my dog, was Great. I need more days like that.

But, please pray for myself, this guy and just that I'll be able to accept what is going on now and let God handle all this. I have a terrible habit of giving this to God and then taking it back. What I've learned from doing that though, is, things backfire and can backfire badly.

I am just struggling w/ him and being w/ this new girl. He's Not dating her. He just wants a sexual friendship w/ her w/o any commitment.

Also, w/ what I wrote down in my note today, I do eventually want to ask him about it because it's necessary and I deserve an answer.

I'm afraid when it comes time to downhill mountain biking to start. I told him I never want to see her again and he knows that fully yet, he wants her to try it so I don't know how that's going to work and honestly am a little afraid but, I will put my foot down if I have to and then he'll have to make a choice.

But, for right now, I really really could just some clarity and some peace of mind/body bc although I felt better earlier right after I prayed, am not doing ok now.

Lord let you bless ManiaStar, in this matter. Let you give your peace and bless ManiaStar. Please bless this prayer. In Jesus Holy name, Amen!

You will receive clarity when you have resolved within yourself to let this guy go his own separate way. There is no need to struggle with him being with this girl because you are no longer in the picture. Actually, this is probably a blessing for you. I will say a prayer for God to calm you though.

That is terrible! He just wants to use her for sex???? Why do you want to be with someone who would do this to anyone????? You deserve WAY better than that. For goodness sakes, you are a CHILD OF GOD. I am praying for you to find someone who knows how to treat people with respect. Blessings!

Alright listen. I don’t think I’m going to post about this situation anymore on here bc of the backlash.

What hes doing is wrong, I admit that. What I’m feeling towards all of this is how I Should be feeling

But.. what I’ve tried explaining a few times is God has his hand on this situation and I believe that wholeheartedly.

Like I explained on Saturday. I was going to write him this harsh text. Prayed before sending it as I didn’t want to do anything to thwart Gods plan or whatever he’s doing in his life. God gave me a clear no, do not send it. God has given me many hints letting me know that he’s working behind the scenes on his life right now.

God is still telling me to be patient and wait. So I’m doing my best to do so.

Please do not put him down for what he’s doing. Yes it’s wrong in more ways then one but if you’ve been thru what I’ve been thru, you’d understand why I believe what I believe. But the thing I’m struggling with is giving him and me space and not talking to him. That’s the toughest challenge for me.

i’m not dillusional. I have had God speak to me for the last 7 yrs bout him, me and both of us. I stepped over the line, out of God’s timing. I have met 2 other people with similar stories as this and what they shared spoke to me where I literally need to fully let go and let God on this. If I don’t, I’ll continue getting disappointed and things just won’t work out. When I finally let go and let God take over, then things will go more smoothly since I won’t be in the picture with him as much as before.

If if anyone decides to comment, please read everything I just wrote before replying. I don’t want Any backlash.

Im mainly asking prayer for him, me and that I fully let this go into God’s caring hands.

Mania, how is God keeping the door open, by telling NOT to contact this guy by sending the text? And if he's in the other relationship for the sex, what makes you think that it would be any different with YOU? I agree with KBond and Tourist. You need to accept that it's over with this guy, he's obviously shown you what kind of guy he is. And you DO deserve better than someone who only would treat you as a sex toy..

I don't want to be in a relationship w/ him right now. It's Not God's timing. I stepped out of boundaries. He and I have been friends for 7 years and God has told me a lot over these 7 years about him. I agree it's over for now and I'm fine w/ that. I'm not trying to get back together w/ him. God had told me several weeks ago to be friends w/ him and support him but for right now, I need to give both him and me space.

But I'm done explaining myself on here about this situation. No one sees things from my point of view or w/ everything God has done/showed me. This story is still in the works. God's plan is in the works. I can never deny anything that has happened these past 7 years. If you experienced something as profound as I have, you would fight for it w/ all you have too.

I'm learning to let go and let God. When I did that for the first time a few weeks ago, and released this guy to God, I got this overwhelming relaxed feeling and peace. God has been wanting me to turn him over to him, so I did.

I partially want to just delete this whole prayer request thing on here. No one is going to understand why I'm doing what I'm doing or what I'm believing and why I'm believing it, so just forget it.

We really want what is best for you. Thirty years old is the perfect time to get married and have babies. It is not a good time to wait on a guy who is not ready to lay down his life for you. Consider that the Holy Spirit is in each one of us who God has sent to respond to your prayer request. Also consider God's Word, "The heart is deceitful above all things..." —Jeremiah 17:9. I pray that God's will be done in your life, sweetheart. Blessings

Dear Maniastar,

I have read all that you wrote and would like to reply. I certainly will pray for you. I am very concerned for you. Just keep in mind that God will NEVER say anything to you that does not line up with His Word in the Bible. That is His ultimate guide and His heart for us. He says these things and sets these boundaries because He loves us and wants to protect us. People can hurt and deceive us. Our enemy, the evil one, can hurt us and deceive us while making us think that he is telling us truth. Even our own hearts can deceive us (Jeremiah 17:9.) If something does not agree with God's Word, then it is not of God. The Bible has to be the final test of what is true and right. Jesus told us to ask to be delivered from evil. This is not backlash, my friend. It is my prayer for you. I will also ask God to turn your friend's heart to Him and to protect the girl that he is involved with. I pray that you truly do place this at God's feet as an offering to Him. Best Wishes.

Yes... I understand. I'm not waiting on him, but, at this time, I'm also just not ready to date anyone else. I have prayed asking God for guidance on this issue. I also spoke to someone last night from a small group I'm a part of. He also told me that for the here and now, my ship has sunk and that the only one that can bring him and me back together is God, but, for right now, I need to fully let him go and give him to God. I cannot let him go and then take him back. God is wanting me to fully release him to him and back off so he can work in both his life and my own life as well. I had told him about that experience I had on Sunday w/ God telling me not to send that text message. I told him that to me, w/ God answering me so quickly and so clearly, that it only means that this guy will come back into my life at some point but, that right now, I need to back off. This guy I was speaking to agreed saying that if this guy wasn't going to come back into my life, God would've let me send him that text because it wouldn't have mattered. And, mind you, God not only told me no but, he also took the anger away and took all the frustration away and relaxed my spirit as well over this whole situation. So, that was truth and was from God. I fully believe it.

This guy I was speaking to, gave me an example. He told me that 30 years ago, he was dating this woman and he really liked her but she wasn't a Christian. They broke up and he had the most difficult time. He said, finally, recently, he let her go to God and told God, I can't do this anymore. You take her and this situation. He said some time went by and he could feel God working in his life and through this situation. He said this lady is slowly starting to look towards Christ more. He had told me though, when they broke up initially, that he remained good friends w/ her, but, when he finally released her over to God, that God brought another woman into his life but he knows in his heart, that this woman won't be the one he's going to marry. He knows that this other woman is the one he's going to marry. He told me that for the here and now, to fully release this guy over to God and to spend time w/ other friends and even try and find another guy to be w/ (which i'm not ready for yet). He told me that so many people who are currently married, have broken up w/ their husband/wife when they were dating because God wasn't ready for them to fully date or get married and that God needed to work. He just told me, don't expect God to work quickly. He's going to work in his timing, which will be best for the both of you. I told him I knew that and I do agree. He told me I will be fine. He just doesn't want me to make the same mistakes he made and where it took him 30 years to let this woman go.

So, I know. I understand. God won't contradict himself. I know. But, God also won't lie to us either. So, I know w/o a shadow of a doubt everything that has happened is from God. My timeline was wrong. That is all. I just need to let go, let God and fully rely on God to help me move forward in all this. That is all.

yes --- believe me. I fully get that. Has God ever audlibly spoken to you more then once? Has his direction and his will ever been so clear to you that you know what he was telling you what going to happen one day?

Did you ever learn that what you chose was wrong and he was teaching you through that experience?

And even if you sinned and didn't follow what God had shown you, has God ever corrected yet, showed you he was still working in that area?

Yes, God has spoken to me with His audible voice, but it always lined up with Scripture. Of course I have sinned and been corrected. We all have. Please be very careful when taking the advice of someone just because they have been in a similar situation. The reason your friend's advice rings a warning bell in my heart is because it is designed to comfort him now, yet hurt someone else in the future. This is not Scriptural. If I understand correctly, he told you that he found another woman, yet still hopes to marry his first love who is not a believer. (In anticipation of her someday becoming a believer) Is it pleasing to God to hurt and betray people? Remember that the Bible says Jesus would not break a bruised reed or put out a smoking flax? He does not want us to use people for our own benefit and then hurt them. God is faithful and that is what He expects from us in relationships. Love and faithfulness lead to marriage which is honorable and God blesses this type of union. It is the relationship that He ordained and He loves it. The bottom line in life is what God says in His Word, not what we want or feel. As believers, our purpose is to glorify God.

So, am I just supposed to ignore or deny all God has told me these past 7 yrs and play it off as not true?

I'm not taking the advice of someone just bc of a similar situation but, to me, it's just , i don't know how to explain it, the similarities of it all. I felt like God sent me this person bc of how their story was so similar to mine. But, God hadn't spoken to her audibly about the guy she was w/. She had just told me that she prayed and said to God if it wasn't his will to fully take this guy away from her.

Of course it's not God's will to hurt and betray people but... I don't know how to explain it.

But, God also doesn't lie. I still fully believe what he told me over the last 7 yrs. I feel all of what happened is very significant. Why would've it all happened if it wasn't significant? God fulfills his promises.