Would you do something for me... Rent FIREPROOF and watch it with your wife. It's a miracle to people in your position. I am praying for you, but even if she won't partake in it... it will teach you something very valuable. Trust me and Trust in God. There is always HOPE! Rent the movie as soon as you can. It can change everything! Just some friendly advice from one Christian siter to another Christian who like many of us fell short. We all do at times. Through God all things are possible!