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xBLINDSIDEx

xBLINDSIDEx

Junior Member
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Jan 29, 2006
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So here it goes.
I feel totally confused about where I'm at right now.

I know where I need to be with God and I have no idea how to get there.
I drink way too much... when I do I generally can't stop... even if I get sick, I keep drinking, I always black out... and to be honest I lack almost any self respect for myself anymore.
I've tolerate being sexually used because I can't see any value on myself beyond that...
Physical love is the only thing trust from men because it's the only feel I know for sure is real.
I left a relationship with some one I loved six months ago to be closer to God...
I no longer have a relationship with Aaron or God and I miss both of them daily.

This is my open confession about how I'm doing.
I'm sorry for all the times you may have asked me how im doing and I reply 'good'.
Because I'm really not doing well at all.

I don't want to be preached at.
I'm sharing this because I honestly have no other place to be totally honest about where my life is at.
Please pray for me.

I AM making efforts right now to set my life in the right direction.
I do NOT feel hopeless.... I just don't know how to untangle the mess I've made.
 
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charisenexcelcis

Guest
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#2
xBLINDSIDEx said:
So here it goes.
I feel totally confused about where I'm at right now.

I know where I need to be with God and I have no idea how to get there.
I drink way too much... when I do I generally can't stop... even if I get sick, I keep drinking, I always black out... and to be honest I lack almost any self respect for myself anymore.
I've tolerate being sexually used because I can't see any value on myself beyond that...
Physical love is the only thing trust from men because it's the only feel I know for sure is real.
I left a relationship with some one I loved six months ago to be closer to God...
I no longer have a relationship with Aaron or God and I miss both of them daily.

This is my open confession about how I'm doing.
I'm sorry for all the times you may have asked me how im doing and I reply 'good'.
Because I'm really not doing well at all.

I don't want to be preached at.
I'm sharing this because I honestly have no other place to be totally honest about where my life is at.
Please pray for me.

I AM making efforts right now to set my life in the right direction.
I do NOT feel hopeless.... I just don't know how to untangle the mess I've made.
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This is a brave and healthy journey that you are starting. The first thing I would suggest is to begin to study God's word, spend time in prayer, and find a supportive and loving fellowship of a Christian community.
I will pray for you every day. God loves you.
In His Service
David King
 
pickles

pickles

Senior Member
#3
Apr 20, 2009
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You are in my prayers for all your needs in Jesus!
You are doing just what Jesus asks, looking to Him, the rest He does in you.
May the faith, hope and love of Jesus fill you.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles
 
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sherlybaik

Guest
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God will lead you, trust in God & believe yourself that you can pass it.
 
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Kat50LovesJesus

Guest
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Blindside,
My story is alot like yours...a whole lot...I was blind and couldn't see for sure...Come join and talk some more in the forums and join in chat...after a while you'll see that there is life here...After a while I had to have life...from my own experience the life of drinking, smoking and having such a good time...leads to nowhere...it's sad but true...The Bible does say it...After a while the good time will end...it did for me...but I found something better!!! Much much better!!! I fell in love with a man that has and will love us both for more than 15 minutes...He is the best thing that has ever happened to me...But I couldn't give up...His Name is Jesus...and what He did will just blow your mind...
 
xBLINDSIDEx

xBLINDSIDEx

Junior Member
#6
Jan 29, 2006
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I'm not blind or lost.

I'm stuck.

Blindness means you can't see where you are and what's around you.... and being lost implies you don't know where you're at.
I know God....
He isn't a stranger.
He's just the vaguely familiar person who you want to talk to... but you don't know how to.
 
pickles

pickles

Senior Member
#7
Apr 20, 2009
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Im still praying for you in Jesus.
Sometimes it not about being stuck, but more learning how to walk again in Jesus.
If Im wrong on this just ignore.
I pray that God will show you His perfect love in Jesus, when you in faith know His love, you will not feel stuck anymore.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles
 
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enduretotheend

Guest
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you might feeeeeeel worthless but contemplate how much your worth is to Christ
 
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