Tomorrow is the 3 year aniversary of me and my ex fiance admitting that we wanted to marry each other in a few years. That is how our relationship started. The wedding would likely have been last month. I may have been a father this year.
Except that her family pressured her so much that she called it all off just under 6 months ago. The kick in the guts that went with it was that she still loved me when she broke it off. But at the time she did not tell me that. For months I believed she didn't love me, all the while she did still. Until this last month or two.
She is now with another guy. Sorta. Her walk with God from where I stand is not so great. At least from outward appearances. I pray for her soul many times every day and I know a great many of you here pray for her also.
I don't claim to be the best saint myself either. I'm learning. I'm making corrections.
Her words are that she does not want a relationship with me ever again. They bring tears to my eyes just thinking about them. And yet, I feel God wants me to persist. To keep treating her good and to keep the friendship going. She is still my best friend. We still do things together. But she is moving further away now and I fear that will impact on our friendship.
I reminded her of what the date was and brought the aniversary to her mind.
Please pray for us individually and as a couple (whatever version) over the next day or so. It is particularly hard on me as I still want to do anything to have her back even tho she from all outwards appearances does not want that. To me, even tho we had not made legal vows, she was my wife. And as such I am willing to forgive her of absolutely anything in love and kindness.
Please God continue to use me to fill her needs, financial and otherwise. Use me in any way you can to keep me doing good in her life. Prevent her from doing evil and nurture a desire for good in her heart. Fill her with your Holy Spirit Lord and sanctify her from within. Let the fruit of the Spirit show and the fruit of the fleash shrink in her life.
And Lord... please grant a miracle that in some way I can reconcile the differences between me and her father.
Except that her family pressured her so much that she called it all off just under 6 months ago. The kick in the guts that went with it was that she still loved me when she broke it off. But at the time she did not tell me that. For months I believed she didn't love me, all the while she did still. Until this last month or two.
She is now with another guy. Sorta. Her walk with God from where I stand is not so great. At least from outward appearances. I pray for her soul many times every day and I know a great many of you here pray for her also.
I don't claim to be the best saint myself either. I'm learning. I'm making corrections.
Her words are that she does not want a relationship with me ever again. They bring tears to my eyes just thinking about them. And yet, I feel God wants me to persist. To keep treating her good and to keep the friendship going. She is still my best friend. We still do things together. But she is moving further away now and I fear that will impact on our friendship.
I reminded her of what the date was and brought the aniversary to her mind.
Please pray for us individually and as a couple (whatever version) over the next day or so. It is particularly hard on me as I still want to do anything to have her back even tho she from all outwards appearances does not want that. To me, even tho we had not made legal vows, she was my wife. And as such I am willing to forgive her of absolutely anything in love and kindness.
Please God continue to use me to fill her needs, financial and otherwise. Use me in any way you can to keep me doing good in her life. Prevent her from doing evil and nurture a desire for good in her heart. Fill her with your Holy Spirit Lord and sanctify her from within. Let the fruit of the Spirit show and the fruit of the fleash shrink in her life.
And Lord... please grant a miracle that in some way I can reconcile the differences between me and her father.
