I'm crying while I'm typing so some words may or may not get mispelled.
Right now, my family and I are in a very bad situation. I'm a single mother of one, 33, living with my mother to make ends meet. I have a part time job, first one I've had in over five years of which I work only 10-20 hours biweekly. I don't make enough to get my own place to rent.
My mother's house is undergoing foreclousure at the moment. We've done all we can and she's given up trying to keep it. She's found a place to relocate for herself, but I am still not financially stable enough to get my own place. I'm very scared, and very worried, but I am also very sad and very hurt. My family is not willing to help me out in any way shape or form. They are not even being emotionally supportive. They constantly snap at me and whenever I try to go to them for comfort all I get is indifference. I'm seriously thinking that when I do become more self sufficient, I'm going to disown every last one of them. My uncle is a retired methodist minister who I feel is the greediest more self centered man on the Earth. He treats my mother and I like we are dirt under his feet simply because we are poor. Him and my aunt are so cold and callus in their behavior towards me. Several reasons flood through my head as to why but one reason probably that is the case is that they've think I've been nothing but a lazy prick all these years. Ever since my daughter was born, I've had mental issues with depression and social anxiety disorder. It runs in the family too, my mother has bipolar disorder and my father is a schizophrenic. I think that my uncle and aunt feel superior from the rest of the family because they think since they've never been cursed with such problems that it gives them the right to look down on us because we do have them.
As of now, I say I have no family. I'm tired of their negativity. I'm tired of always being looked down on by people who don't deserve to be put on a high pedestal. I'm tired of feeling bad because my retired minister uncle behaves falsely in his Godly walk and takes it upon himself to act as if he's God himself!
But I want someone to pray for me and the struggles I am going through right now. Pray that I can find the help I need to get me out of this cruel situation. Pray that somewhere, God will lead to the right people who are loving and care to admit me as family in Christ. Because my real family is not my family. They can never be my family because there is no love in them only hate. Please pray for me.
Right now, my family and I are in a very bad situation. I'm a single mother of one, 33, living with my mother to make ends meet. I have a part time job, first one I've had in over five years of which I work only 10-20 hours biweekly. I don't make enough to get my own place to rent.
My mother's house is undergoing foreclousure at the moment. We've done all we can and she's given up trying to keep it. She's found a place to relocate for herself, but I am still not financially stable enough to get my own place. I'm very scared, and very worried, but I am also very sad and very hurt. My family is not willing to help me out in any way shape or form. They are not even being emotionally supportive. They constantly snap at me and whenever I try to go to them for comfort all I get is indifference. I'm seriously thinking that when I do become more self sufficient, I'm going to disown every last one of them. My uncle is a retired methodist minister who I feel is the greediest more self centered man on the Earth. He treats my mother and I like we are dirt under his feet simply because we are poor. Him and my aunt are so cold and callus in their behavior towards me. Several reasons flood through my head as to why but one reason probably that is the case is that they've think I've been nothing but a lazy prick all these years. Ever since my daughter was born, I've had mental issues with depression and social anxiety disorder. It runs in the family too, my mother has bipolar disorder and my father is a schizophrenic. I think that my uncle and aunt feel superior from the rest of the family because they think since they've never been cursed with such problems that it gives them the right to look down on us because we do have them.
As of now, I say I have no family. I'm tired of their negativity. I'm tired of always being looked down on by people who don't deserve to be put on a high pedestal. I'm tired of feeling bad because my retired minister uncle behaves falsely in his Godly walk and takes it upon himself to act as if he's God himself!
But I want someone to pray for me and the struggles I am going through right now. Pray that I can find the help I need to get me out of this cruel situation. Pray that somewhere, God will lead to the right people who are loving and care to admit me as family in Christ. Because my real family is not my family. They can never be my family because there is no love in them only hate. Please pray for me.
