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I can't take this anymore!
I want to summarize to all of you.. what has happened in my life as a proclaimed 'believer.'
How I came to have an interest in christ jesus was when I had received a king james bible audio disc.
And when I had listened to the bible being read I had just stopped it and went along with my life, I felt bad knowing gods wrath was upon me, basically I was like a dog to some people, I would hurt them if they really messed around with me to the point that I might possibly hurt them,.... basically it was the old man, BUT that isn't it though I wasn't always like that.. But I felt bad, because I was putting myself in the wrong groups, therefore corrupting myself, I had found pleasure in sinful activities like talking about perverted things and stuff.. well what I mean was!!.. oh I was at school and basically I wasn't a very social person and at lunch I would talk to these kids but a while after being with them I considered becoming 'christian' but I was still not saved that time, as time passed by I got more of a interest in christ, that I asked (well, you may call her my mother but as it says in Luke chapter 14 verse 26.. "If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.") I had asked for a bible and I got one, and I read it and grew about knowledge of christ jesus and then I had prayed to accept Jesus as my lord and savior but still.. the old man.. the carnal mind that I have still messes with me now.. The thing is I done troublesome sins after that! I had masturbated, I tried to stop at will but the devil tempted me through my fleshly desires and I gave into it again and again soon until I was able to stop... FOR A WHILE!BUT THEN I GAVE INTO IT AGAIN... oh lord.. such a wicked horrible body that I have, I don't know.. Maybe I will be able to stop it with the power of God but maybe it was my fault? I don't know but it's making me feel like I am sinning purposely... I stay at home but the thing is the woman who you would refer to as my mother does not support me in a way to bring me to a church oftenly. I think im slothful and sluggish for doing this.. Am I ever learning and unable to come to the truth?! woe is unto me please pray for me.. Pray that I may get salvation through the Lord Jesus Christ or that God will.. well I don't know.. it's late right now I apologize if I am being self centered but the Devil is trying to confuse me and lead me astray, I know that he's trying to do that.. but it just doesn't seem to me if im a christian or not.. But I don't want to be a liar! You have your own right wether to think me of a christian or a lost sinner.
I want to summarize to all of you.. what has happened in my life as a proclaimed 'believer.'
How I came to have an interest in christ jesus was when I had received a king james bible audio disc.
And when I had listened to the bible being read I had just stopped it and went along with my life, I felt bad knowing gods wrath was upon me, basically I was like a dog to some people, I would hurt them if they really messed around with me to the point that I might possibly hurt them,.... basically it was the old man, BUT that isn't it though I wasn't always like that.. But I felt bad, because I was putting myself in the wrong groups, therefore corrupting myself, I had found pleasure in sinful activities like talking about perverted things and stuff.. well what I mean was!!.. oh I was at school and basically I wasn't a very social person and at lunch I would talk to these kids but a while after being with them I considered becoming 'christian' but I was still not saved that time, as time passed by I got more of a interest in christ, that I asked (well, you may call her my mother but as it says in Luke chapter 14 verse 26.. "If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.") I had asked for a bible and I got one, and I read it and grew about knowledge of christ jesus and then I had prayed to accept Jesus as my lord and savior but still.. the old man.. the carnal mind that I have still messes with me now.. The thing is I done troublesome sins after that! I had masturbated, I tried to stop at will but the devil tempted me through my fleshly desires and I gave into it again and again soon until I was able to stop... FOR A WHILE!BUT THEN I GAVE INTO IT AGAIN... oh lord.. such a wicked horrible body that I have, I don't know.. Maybe I will be able to stop it with the power of God but maybe it was my fault? I don't know but it's making me feel like I am sinning purposely... I stay at home but the thing is the woman who you would refer to as my mother does not support me in a way to bring me to a church oftenly. I think im slothful and sluggish for doing this.. Am I ever learning and unable to come to the truth?! woe is unto me please pray for me.. Pray that I may get salvation through the Lord Jesus Christ or that God will.. well I don't know.. it's late right now I apologize if I am being self centered but the Devil is trying to confuse me and lead me astray, I know that he's trying to do that.. but it just doesn't seem to me if im a christian or not.. But I don't want to be a liar! You have your own right wether to think me of a christian or a lost sinner.