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As I read these prayer requests I feel so foolish to even post mine but I don't know where else I can express this without feeling as if I am just adding to the problems that my loved ones already have in there lives. So for those who read this I would certainly appreciate the prayers as well as biblical guidance. I have only been a christian for 9 months so I have a lot of learning to do and unfortunately my circumstances are requiring more knowledge of God's teachings than I have learned. I am living with my boyfriend of 5 years and he also was saved a little after I was. We have a 3 year old daughter. I am embarrassed at my circumstances because I know this is not how it should have been done but now I am trying to figure out what it is that God does want me to do. Our relationship has been sooo rocky from the get go and I have just come to a point where I have been many times where I question if this is the man I am supposed to marry. I do believe in not divorcing and I have looked at us as married and have the same devotion to it but I wonder if I'm only staying because we have a daughter together and i figure if God gave us a child together He must have wanted us to stay together right? We are having hard times but we were engaged (are?) but every time I ask when are we getting married I can see that he is not even sure himself. I'm just confused with what I should do. Do I leave or stay I'm not sure what God says about our circumstances. And I pray and pray and ask for guidance from God but I feel like either God doesn't hear me or I dont hear what He is trying to tell me, if He is telling me something. I love my boyfriend but I feel like we have had tooo many times where separation was the first answer to our problems. I know it takes more details but I don't want to take anymore of ur time so even though u may not have the answer please pray that I find out and understand what it is that God wants me to do so I can finally stop questioning and start trying to do whats right. I have wondered about this for 4 years and would just love to find piece and proceed with which ever direction God wants me no matter how painful it may be. Its worse not knowing that to know your goal of loving or letting go.