Need to have faith that it will be okay

I am a single mom of two children. After a very hard and difficult break up with my ex it left me in a world of drug abuse and depression. This continued for a couple of months. During this time, my son's dad (who we used to be best friends, but the friendship diminished and has been horriable for the past 3 years) broke up with his girlfriend. We found ourselves conforting one another on a friendship level again. We both found God, and life seemed to be going well. We had some ups and downs, but were always able to overcome them. The family seemed to be complete, my son had his mommy and daddy at the same time. Although we never become romantically involved, that close friendship was there. It seemed that God's plan was easy to see.

Two days ago, I had a blow up and freaked out on him. I said some very hurtful things, and I said some thigns that I cannot take back. I have tried to apologize, but he won't forgive me. He said he wants nothing to do with me anymore and that he hates me. He is even confused on what to do about our son. He is willing to walk away from his son just to not have to deal with me. I know what i said and did was wrong, but it wasn't anything that he hasn't said or done to me, and I have always forgiven him. I have begged him for forgiveness, offered counseling, I have even poured out my heart to him. His response is either "leave me alone", "go away", or " not my problem."

How is this God's plan? How can anything positive come from this? I am a new Christian and I don't have a church a family or anyone to lean on right on. I just don't know what to do.

Well if you based and committed your friendship to God, well then you can say it was His plan, but if you based your relationship on somethingelse you can't say it was His plan coz you never based your relationship on Him. Can something positive come out of this? Yes, if you choose to surrender your life, and your current situation to God, He will make all things well. I will be praying for you, God bless

Praying in Jesus that all will be healed soon.
Give your husband some time, sometimes healing takes this.

Hugs and God bless.
pickles

I will ask God to give you both insight, wisdom, understanding and God's perfect love, perfect love drives out fear.( For your son's sake; I pray you can stay in contact with his father.) In Jesus Name Amen

Thank you so much for the prayers. This is a very difficult time, I thought that maybe by now he would have budged, but he isn't. He really wants nothing to do with me. I have a hard time letting go of this friendship as it has been a huge part of my life for 6 years now. He was the one that brought me to God for the first time. Being new to Chrisitanity, I still struggle greatly. I am learning that God is who I need to live my life for not relationships, or friendships.