Out of Work And No Where To Go

I've been out of work for almost a year now, and it'g gotten to the point that my Electric could be shut off by the end of the week.
The problem that's making it hard to find work, is that I've got bad credit.
This predicament was caused by severe illnesse a few years ago. To this day I still haven't been able to get free of that bad credit. (The creditors didn't wan payments, they wanted full payment....and it was much more than I earned at the time, and still is)
Causing me to fall befind in my bills. And make a choice of voluntarily leaving my job or being trminated. I chose to take a voluntary leave.....and retire. (I ws with the V.A. for 15 years). So riight now, I'm getting only $328 monthly.
But, with the increase in living costs, the retirement isn't enough.
So now, with bad credit no one will hire me. And, I DO realize that this problem is 90% percent my fault. But, I want to make "restitution" and pay the creditors with payments (even though they'd rather be "paid off" in total.
And it's starting to be detrimental to my very existence.
I can't get a job with bad credt. And I can't repair the bad credit without a job.
And Public Agencies in the State of Florida told me they can't help.

I've been pryaing about this situation. Trying to let God handle it.

I realize this IS greater than myself. And I can't take care of this by myself.

Gary Stanullwich

Will pray that you see a miracle happen in your situation.I know things are rough right now and you might think the best thing to do is just give up but don't,God has a plan for you and if you give it time everything will work out. God bless

Thanks for the encouragement, mcap.
You realize God is going to do something good to or for you for your caring attitude.
gstan

Hello Gstan,

let me tell you what happened to me, and perhaps you will be grateful for what you have.

Back in 2004, my wife left me for someone else that was in our church. Since that has happened, I have "come to find out" I am bi-polar. The psychiatrist tell me that the affair and the loss of being of around my daughter as Her DAD like I should have been able "triggered it."

I ended up several years later sleeping behind a dumpster on a piece of cardboard for a few weeks, that how low I ended up. Just a tip; if you ever have to sleep outside, that plastic wrap they throw away will keep you warm LOL!

Ok, when I was married I achieved a solid 6 figure income. Period. When my wife left me, I was so tore up over a long extended time, that I could not even hold a job at the local dollar store.

My heart was SO bitter towards God I almost thought that the devil himself would have been a kinder friend. Little did I know, that it's NOT GOD' FAULT!

People, events, situations BREAK OUR HEARTS and TEAR the "goodness" from us. FACT.

IT IS my job, as a TRUE Christian to KEEP the faith in the GOOD and HORRIBLE TIMES.

Life is chock full of BETRAYAL from the ones we really are in love with, this hurts us so deeply sometimes, we wish for the end.

On the day I was really considering "ending it all;" and there has been several times since 2004 that I was close to it, a WOMAN pulled up along side of me as I was walking my bicycle because I was to weak and hungry to ride, asked me where I was going. I told her my "Story" and she has put me up in an apartment for months now so I can get it together. She has been to ME, nothing short of a real live EARTH ANGEL.

Now, things are looking up, I get my visitation with my daughter, and my x-wife is very co-operative, even though I have not been able to pay child support and I am trying to get on disability due to my mental illness.

In SHORT,

For me, how God has worked in this:

Right when I am about to give up for real, HE sends someone to SAVE MY BUTT. He wants for me to understand that I cannot save MYSELF...this for me in the true revelation of my life.


Life for me, has NOT worked out even close to what I would have wanted it to. NOT EVEN CLOSE.


I have missed out on some of the Greatest opportunities I could have even imagined and for years and years it was RUBBED IN MY FACE.

REGRET is my number one companion most of the time.

God wanted me to understand that I am not my "paycheck" as soooo many other people really buy into that.

Our society looks at WHO we are, are WHAT we HAVE more so than what our HEARTS are like. period.

God took it all away, to make sure I was focused on the condition of my heart, rather than the condition of my wallet and what I have achieved.....

Hope this helps, at least you are not on a piece of cardboard wrapped up in plastic warp.....

What an encouraging post!!!!!......

SethSethSeth :
Thanks for the encouragement.
But, as of this writing, I'm still not too confident in what future I have.
Today is June 10th..........unless i am able to start bring in some real money, my electricity is going to shuf off on Friday.
And so far I've still got Internet access. My telephone has been shut off. So I can't call oiut to talk to someone.
To be hones wtih you....I am living with a friend. We've known each other for close to 30 years now. We co-own
a moblile home. (Nothing homosexual here). But, since my downfall, he's been paying, at least 99% of the bills. And I know
it's a strain on him.
I'm still receiving Unemployment from the State of Florida, but that's coming to an end. (They go by your last income).
I'm becomiing afraid again.
I've been praying about this situation......but the credit thing keeps popping up. (Being no one will hire me with bac credit).
It's getting to the point that I look forward to my death. (I know.....suicide is a sin.......and God can't condone it).
The thing that makes it hard is that, I'm a criminal if I DO commit suicide. But, I'm just as much an outcast/criminal by not
being able to get a job. Being labeled a bum, a lazy so-an-so.
I look forward to workinng again. I realized in the recent past that it's good therapy. If not the paycheck part of it.
I'm not so much afraid of the dying part..........just what I have to go through to get there.
I've contacted several State (of Florida) agencies, and they told me they can't help me. The welfare office told me I'm bringing]
in too much money. ($328 a month-----after all the deductions from my Retirements[plural]. I'm getting two Retirments, one from the
Federal, and one from the State of Florida.
And i've looked at help from the Federal level. Same thing.

I realize this 'credit ' thing is 90l% percent my fault. I'm not claiming to be a victim. And I know I screwed up.
But, without that phone, I can't even talk to anyone.
I don't want to press any further to my best friend/roommate. He's already 'tapped out'.
I'm just becoming afraid......again.
gstan