Bad Credit, No Job

Too bad Christianchat.com didn't have a chat room......sometimes it helps to be able to talk to someone. Rather than post a message and wait for a reploy.
Well....today is June 11th..............
And tomorrow my electricity is supposed to be shut off. I'm out of work and i not able to get my $328 out of the bank until July 1st. (I get $328 a month retirement).
So, I guess this could be the last communication for a while.
I don't have a phone where i could talk to someone (live), when the depression/panic attacks happen. I just have to deal with it by myself. (I know........what about prayer?) I've been praying.
And, I'm getting the feeling that God is done wtih me.
So tonight I just hope that "door" will open , and i can step through it and everything will be over. No one knows what it's like being stuck at home....by yourself......becoming more useless each day. Being no one will hire me.
I don't think anyone realize how much I look forward to death.
I don't even think the people at my church realize how serious this situation is. And, I'm getting tired of "going through the motions".
There's realy nothing to look forward to............
Well, thanks for the support, guys...........and , I guess goodbye....
Unless I DO make it through the night, and , by some miracle, the electricity is still on.....................then, I'll have one more day to
exist.
Sorry to be so dramatic........but, this thing IS greater than me..........and I think.......almost know........it's a losing battle.
I don't really feel like that much of a fight anymore........I can't go on like this............................................
bye.......
garystan

Gstan,
We do have chat.....see where it says at top, chat now?? or a member box
to enter your nick and password?? There are people to talk to ...
I encourage you to contact your pastor and talk to him about your situation also.
Praying for you...

Heavenly Father I lift up garystan and pray Lord for assistance in his situation. Lord help him with his depression and Lord please give him a revelation, Lord please let him feel your presence even in the lowest of times for you will not abandon him or forsake him. Lord we praise you and thank you in Jesus name.

Im praying for you. God bless, pickles

How are you?

H i, imoss :

I'm not doing toooooo bad.
Still staying with the Men's Support Group at church.

I'm getting a few calls from employment agencies. Saying they saw my resume online, and
asked me to comie in a fill oiut an application.
Of course, I agreed to.
But, now.............I just have to wait and see if anyone will hire me.
I've been trying to remind myself that "....nothing is impossible with God". And, what it
says in PHillipians : "I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me".


garystan

Amen...his word says to not worry about what you will eat & drink... but still that gets tough when there is no real paycheque in the forseeable future and satan likes to get his 2 cents in too! but with God things change in an instant right!! Keep up the faith and keep up the fellowship with the Lord! Its in the trying times that we have to really lean on the Lord & do our part too of course... (the birds have to leave the nest to get the food so to speak.) You are doing this and you will be just fine cause God's on your side! Blessings to you.

imoss:

Thanks for the words.
Yeah.....what you said is true.
I guess I have to keep on trying...........putting one foot in front of the other.......and let
God do the rest.
So far, I haven't "gone under".

garystan

after posting Gary I read another of your threads... You are at a definite disadvantage as far as health goes but please dont forget you can do all things through Christ who strenthens you. I continue, my friend in Prayer for you. Marcia.

i am praying for you and please always remember no matter how low you get that the Lord loves you and He IS there - there is always a reason He allows things and answers prayers in the way He does. i know others have and are going through bad times too. i care and i am praying for you. God Bless!