Womanizing, scandalous behavior, Sleeping with other mens wives, I cannot return to these old sins.
I am sick and tired of waiting for GOD to send that special someone, the days, months and even years are passing with nothing but frustration and emptiness.
I sit and watch others blessed, while they are rubbing it my face. Laughing and mocking ay my pain.
One of my best females friends is telling me to "rest in God's perfect plan for me". She is single herself, with all types of heart ache, and somehow she find peace with her un-answered prayers. I however do not.
There are tons of guy who tell me "Dude, just go get laid". Lie and womanize, it's the"real" way to deal with it all.
But, I know that each time I have even tried to get close to doing this, I got burned so bad, with other things failing like my job, main source of income, that I am actually scared of doing that.
I don't want to go there.
But, then I am left with my prayers being left un-answered. A void, that I ask HIM to fill it, but GOD doesn't.
So I suffer, I suffer while I see others praying their brains out seeking after every ting sinful pleasure under the sin.
Why can I not, partake in sex before marriage and have things go decent without something terrible happening to me???
I wish could just go to the bars and womanize like the rest of them and get laid each week-end like so many others are doing. But I know some type of disaster would have to me, I would loose my place to stay or something very serious.
Sometimes, I wish I didn't know it was even a sin and disobedient to God, so I could just do it and have it not even phase me.
Does anyone, I mean anyone, feel this way at all????
I see these hot girls walk around my apartment complex all the time and it's driving me crazy!
I am sick and tired of waiting for GOD to send that special someone, the days, months and even years are passing with nothing but frustration and emptiness.
I sit and watch others blessed, while they are rubbing it my face. Laughing and mocking ay my pain.
One of my best females friends is telling me to "rest in God's perfect plan for me". She is single herself, with all types of heart ache, and somehow she find peace with her un-answered prayers. I however do not.
There are tons of guy who tell me "Dude, just go get laid". Lie and womanize, it's the"real" way to deal with it all.
But, I know that each time I have even tried to get close to doing this, I got burned so bad, with other things failing like my job, main source of income, that I am actually scared of doing that.
I don't want to go there.
But, then I am left with my prayers being left un-answered. A void, that I ask HIM to fill it, but GOD doesn't.
So I suffer, I suffer while I see others praying their brains out seeking after every ting sinful pleasure under the sin.
Why can I not, partake in sex before marriage and have things go decent without something terrible happening to me???
I wish could just go to the bars and womanize like the rest of them and get laid each week-end like so many others are doing. But I know some type of disaster would have to me, I would loose my place to stay or something very serious.
Sometimes, I wish I didn't know it was even a sin and disobedient to God, so I could just do it and have it not even phase me.
Does anyone, I mean anyone, feel this way at all????
I see these hot girls walk around my apartment complex all the time and it's driving me crazy!