For me and just sight

Well hello if you know me normally Iam a happy person which i try too be but latelly its soooo hard for me. I mean I had issues like anorexic issues as young i woudlnt even eat a apple i freak out what it would do too me even dought apples are good for us lol. I mean i still have this in my mind its just soo hard too block my mind out of this stage and it drives me crazy. I mean I get so frusturated. I can bellieve Iam gonna say this but it is a prayer request. I well have anorexic and bulemic past and its hard too get rid of this mentally. even after years past by one time in like 2 months i lost like 40 poundd being sick not eating or eating and but my problem is i eat anything and I mean anything and I run in front of mirror and freak out. I mean latelly its been really getting at me. Even if its all healthy lol and no I cant run or jog i had surgery on leg and my leg swells up soo much i wanna cry. Today just hadsnt been a good day :-(.... I mean ugh ..I hope someone on here understands what I mean by what I posted on here ....:-(.. Iam just sad today... I hate this feeling in my mind about anorexic or bulemic ...grrrrr..

You will be in my prayers tonight! x

awww thanks you...

Well no matter how bad my day goes, I always know that He makes everything beautiful and sadness, sorrow and all hurt and pain are only temporary, coz He will shine His light and make everything glorious again! I'll put you in my prayers. God bless

My husbands sister battles this, so I understand how much you desire healing.
Praying for all healing and freedom from this in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I'm pray you will have the break through you need in Jesus name!
That God will show you a reflection of how much He loves you!
So you may love yourself nomatter what reflects back in the mirror.
God bless you!

this is my 2nd post today on this topic, i dont know if god is using me to speak out on my same problem i had at the age of 16 but hey here it go, i grew up in a house hold were have long hair and being skinny ment you was good looking, so my mom said. i was always on the thick side i had hips, but and so forth i had got it from my dad side of the family, so i was reminded of that every day as a child. when i became 16 i still havent hd a boyfriend and guys was looking at friends and family members my age i was always told i was to fat then but had a pritty face. so i one day saw a tv show on girl who threw up and lost so much wait i did it lost 50 or more pounds, im now 38 i just stop 6mth ago and didnt know it was a problem till a yr ago and that i needed to stop one day i prayed in church god take that away from me and many other things and he did i dont get that feeling no more when i eat it need to come up or get that thought to get on the scale when i feel a little fat from eating something small i pray for you and that god see you threw like he did me im still growing but i know if it wasnt for him ill have health problems doing this for so long god bless and amen

Thanks all soo much its just soo hard not east at all. I had friend I told in life like in high school a guy friend and the last thing you need is someone too joke about it really. This person when i told him in high school at first it was ok since he admitted he had same too going on but then when we got in a argument he yelled at me bulimic anorexic girl and it really hurt. I don't normally just tell anyone this but its just emotional and hard at times I have hard times I loose and I gain and as much as I seem a happy person I am dont get me wrong but sometimes I am like ughhh why . I really appreciate a lot for whom responded too this all of you understanding and keeping me in prayers. Thanks a lot I love the responds and understanding this too me on here too me.

god bless you all and hugs thanks a lot

I literlly weight my self like three times or 2 a day and every day at most a day may pass its like a obssesion I cant help it I ughhh god help me.