Heavy Duty Prayers Needed Please

Where to even start, hmmm......Let's try the abridged version.....

My husband has been taken to the mental hospital, leaving me with two children and very little income. My mom's breast cancer has returned after only a year and is now classed as stage III cancer. Particularly worrisome as my sister died from breast cancer only a few years ago.

I have some sort of demonic (?) force coming at me in terms of a lady who is threatening to use some information against me that I had divulged on a public forum. I refer to it as demonic as I've never done anything to this woman, and I don't know why she would want to hurt me (she does have a history of mean behavior, so that's probably just it).

All this at a time when my faith in God's protection is at an all-time low. I'm saved, I know that, and I will go to heaven, but I no longer feel that God cares about the day to day events of my life. Praying almost feels pointless now, yet I'm asking for people to pray for me anyways.

~ Lauren

Wow thats a lot to deal with. I will definately be praying.

I am praying. Huge hugs, God bless, pickles

Sister Lauren,
Bless your heart love i can relate to what you go thru, my husband and two of my sons are bi-polar its not easy i know. My mother also has many ailments. Just when you think nothing else can possiblily go wrong BOOM here comes another flood. Having said that blessed daughter of the Most High (and yes you are) Dont give up I truely believe your on the brink of your miricle. Weeping may endure for the night but Joy cometh in the morning. God hears you and cares deeply for you and your loved ones. When you have done all you can do just stand love, God will do the walking for you.

Father i come to you in thanks for this sister and all that You are doing on her behalf. I speak Peace that passes all understanding to not only her situations but also her spirit. I speak Joy unspeakable to overflow her from her head to the soles of her feet. Lord when she is able to rest I pray she rest in Your everlasting loving arms. I pray for her mother Lord this cancer has to go now in Jesus name it has no place in her. Her body is to line up with Your word Father. Her healing has done been paid for sickness must go for by the stripes You bore precious Jesus she was healed. I speak to the mental condition of her husband Lord your word says that You have not given us the spirit of fear but that of Love Power and of a SOUND MIND. Thank you Jesus for your answer is Yes and AMEN. May you be glorified in Lauren and her familys life so that all may stop and see What the LORD HAS DONE. GLory Hallilujua!!!!!!!!!!! Giving You Jesus all praise Glory and Honor. In the name above ALL names the name of Jesus I pray .. Amen and AMEN

much love to you dear sister,
dawnbreaking (Theresa)

Lauren.... im so sorry your going through all of this...... Thats gotta be really hard for you! I will definantly be praying for your family!

Oh please, please, don't say that. I truly know that you were just trying to help, but I've heard that same thing for 12 years now, and I believe it has done me more harm than good. I kept believing it when people told me to hold on for the miracle, because I was very young in the faith and impressionable.

Waiting on that miracle has given me the wrong idea of who God really is; he doesn't always pluck us out of the pain even after years and years in the trial. It's made me angry at God, angry at the people that told me these things, angry at myself for believing it and putting my faith at risk when the miracle didn't materialize.

I don't even have anything left in me to hope, not a shred to will myself to hope.

My apologies to dawnbreaking. I did ask for prayer, all prayer.

I'm a confused, sad person right now and I reacted as I shouldn't have.

~ lauren

Oh, if I could I would give you the biggest hug right now. I don't know why it happens, but it seems like when bad things happen to us it happens in bundles; when it rains it pours. I'll be praying for you and even when it seems pointless, keep praying. If there's people around you that you trust, don't hesitate to ask for help if you need it. You're strong, and you've got God on your side even when things get this bad.

God bless you

That's true Chelsers. Bad things DO tend to happen all at the same time.

Lauren, you said your faith in God was at an all time low. I think that when this happens, sometimes God intervenes and allows bad things to happen to us, knowing that only by relying on God and having faith in Him will we make it through, and this strengthens our faith. Someone once told me that having faith is more than just KNOWING that God CAN solve our problems, it is BELIEVING that He WILL. You have to overcome the negative thoughts and accept that God has a reason for what is happening. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Wow.. I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this.. I will definately keep you and your family in my prayers and thoughts...

God bless.

Sister Lauren,
No need to apologize dear sister. I understand where you are coming from and your frustrations. You have a sister and friend here anytime you need to. You will remain in my prayers dear one. I pray the Holy spirit breaths peace and joy to you today and everyday in Jesus name.

much love and understanding,
Dawnbreaking (Theresa)

Thanks Sharp. I understand what you're saying here. This valley is a bit different from others that I've been through in that I have absolutely nothing left in me to hope with, nothing - hard as I try, I can't hope or believe for anything right now. I know other people that have said that that is when God comes in because then there is no doubt that it was all Him.

BTW, I miss your doggy. I need to change my avatar as I think I've made a laughinstock of my dignified papillon

Thank you to everyone else for your prayers. I'm going to go back and reread this thread more than once so that I can glean more understanding from it and possibly take a little strength from others prayers.

I understand completely where you are coming from with this.........

Thanks Missy. I am glad to know that I'm not the only one who has been a bit confounded by God's ways or at least by what people say are God's ways.

I think some of the pat answers / sayings that Christians have can sometimes do a lot of harm.

You know which one really gets me? "God will never give you more than you can handle" ..... What???

I will say that I do think that's true that God will never give you more than you can handle. Even when you think you can't, if you ask Him to give you strength, He will. Now that doesn't mean that it won't be hard, but He'll get you through it.

I know what you mean though, because when you're in it that's one of the last things you want to hear.

Hey Lauren. Well, I can identify greatly w/ what your going through, as you read in my thread. My uncle died Friday w/ cancer. And before he died, I was so angry & hurt that I wanted to scream & never stop! I also have had dealings w/ a really horrible, hurtful, "supposed christian" woman who was supposed to be my friend at one time. All she lives for is to spread lies about me. And Ive done nothing to her, exept try to be a good friend. Any way, I will try to get to my point...
There were these things, along w/ so many others..(theres too many to go into right now!)....that were all just totally breaking my spirit. I too felt like my prayers were pointless. But after my uncle died, of course I cried and Im still grieving, but I also felt so much peace! And Ive also spent alot of time laghing this week. His death put so much into perspective for me, that I dont care so much about some things, like I did before! As I said, he died friday, and the sunday afterward, I went up to this woman (mind you, my brain was screaming at me to stop, but my heart & the Holy Spirit had other ideas!)... and I put my arms around her and just kept telling her that I loved her & always would. It just came over me, and afterward, even though I think she still hates me, I felt this enormous weight lifted off of me, & I just dont care anymore if she hates me.
Even though my uncle is no longer w/ us, I have so much peace about everything!
I dont know all the details about what your going through, but I do know that sometimes, it takes bad things happening, to really open your eyes & heart to what God wants for you.
I try to remember Job, & all he went through. He never cursed God, & he remained faithful.
Trust me, I know how hard & utterly impossible that can seem to be, sometimes!
Just please remember, that Jesus does love you...(because He died on the cross, & endured more suffering than we could ever imagine, for you!)...& He always will love you!
I'm so sorry that this reply is so long, but I hope it at least, somewhat helped. Sometimes, knowing youre not alone, & hearing someone elses testimony cane make you feel a little better. I will be praying for you & your mom, and I hope that that the weight, & pain of all that you'r going through, lessens. God bless you, & take care!
And please, dont forget to pray for the woman who is causing problems for you, because, odds are, she probably needs it just as much as you do! Once again, God bless!

Don't give up, okay? Even if it's really hard and doesn't feel like it, God is always with you no matter what. *hug* I'll be praying for you.

Thanks everyone for continued prayers. I guess my husband is so bad off mentally that they're going to put him in a home. (I learned this from speaking to the hospital yesterday).

At first when he was gone, it was almost a relief as he's been a drain on the family for years and years. It's almost been like having a third child around, but worse as you expect more from an adult than a child.

But now, I feel very alone. It feels almost like my husband died and I'm grieving, but no one is grieving with me because he isn't actually dead.....if that makes sense.

I didn't think I could feel worse than when I started this thread, but today I do.

Oh my Lauren!!! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))).............when does he go in?

He's currently at the VA hospital where they are doing some cognitive testing before they consider what kind of home to put him in.

He had become a danger to us and himself here, so I asked that he be admitted to the hospital earlier this week (he was doing crazy things like turning all the burners on the stove and stuff).

He has caused so much grief over the years with his actions, that I just thought it would be a relief for him to be elsewhere. And it was a relief the first few days, but now I feel I'm grieving for our marriage and I've got no one to grieve with me.