Heavy Heart

I need your prayers of faith and hope to pray for me to find my hope and faith in God again..I am a christian women and have been serving the Lord for a long time I thought my faith was unshakeable because of who Christ is..and who Christ is in me..I am a women who loved to pray, I have been called a prayer warrior by many christians.. I don't say that as a message of pride but just to give you a glimpse of who I thought I was in Christ. Over 4yrs. now I lost everything precious to me including my 2 smallest children to an evil divorce battle that has held my children captive and barely knowing there mother. I have received much advise from well meaning christians only to endure more heartbreak and fustration. I have also received many heartfelt prayers from those who clearly see the injustice in my case but nothing has changed. I feel as if my prayers are meaningless. All the mornings I spent on my knees and all the time I spent in Gods word just to try to get through the days in peace. I have cried many tears of grief for my babys and pleaded with God for help to bring justice through the people who could helphe help my children and I out of our pain and bring us redemption and healing, but it doesn't come. I have questioned everything I have known to be true, everything I have stood for. I know God is our heavenly father and Jesus our Savior. I know Gods word is true and yet what used to be a joy to read is now a source of pain. A reaching a grabbing for everything I have believed in and yet my hope fails with every day of defeat. (Respectfully, I don't need advise) Please pray..Thank you Sincerely, PMarie

I'll pray now... hmmm even though I'm not in a good times with God but I'll do... "God lost His children someday too... and He knows how it feels and He can help" .. bye...

I am praying, huge hugs. God bless, pickles

Pmarie, I hope this wont sound like advice but more a sharing. I felt so much for you and although I can not know how much you hurt right now I do know pain and my heart is with you in Jesus. Three years ago someone whom I had trusted God to bring into my life hurt me through my children. The heart ache was so great it actually changed my heartbeat perminately. I have Loved Jesus all my life also, but I could not understand how he would allow this. It took time and alot of crying prayer but I came to see that most of what we go through in our life is less about the cause and totally how we go through it and what we give it to. I spent more than a year crying every night to Jesus but I still gave it all to him. It did not change what had happened but he gave me the healing to continue on. He also gave my children the wisdom and streangth to continue also. It may seem so simple and not anything new but if you do continue to Trust Jesus, no matter the outcome, I know he will give you the peace and streangth you and your children need. I will continue to pray for all things for you and your children. All my heart in Jesus, God bless, pickles

Please try! and prays a lot. He will listen to everything you please. This is probably the one challenge he set for you. Please try! I recommend that you try and prayers a lot. make fresh laughs. my mother is an evangelist. my mother received from prayer For God's blessing. I will please my mother prays for you. hope that God will hear it please. I want to give you a song. That Song that are appropriate to your situation now. But the song written by Vietnamese, not in English. I will give you. although you do not understand, but I think you will feel the powerful and sweeter songs from it.
Can you tell me your address email? I will send that song you!! GOD IS GOOD FOR YOU AND ME.....
I can understand. I will always miss you and keep you, your family in my prayer. GOOD is always Good for you and me......

Dear Pickles,
thank you for your prayers and for sharing your experience as well. It's important that we share our trials in order to encourage one another I appreciated what you had to say..My experience has been extremly painful and too much advise is different than sharing a personal story to encourage. Its hard when outsiders dont really know all the details and they judge on an asumption or they get some details and criticize me on what I did or didnt do in there opinion picking apart my life and blaming me. I am grateful for the strong christians in my life that have wisdom and disernment and for those that have been there since the beginning to see first hand all the unthinkable evil that has taken place. It's hard anymore to talk in too much depth about everything I go through emotionally on a daily basis because there is no point. I have learned that nobody can help and those that can help won't because justice cost a lot of money in the eyes of the world. I believed I would be redeemed and the truth would be exposed but every passing day, week, month and year just makes me grow more weary. I have forgotten how to really live or how to be a part of anything real, my heart is too grieved to move forward. I don't want to move forward without my babys, how could I? My life is in a limbo between holding on and letting go..I don't really know how to do eighther. I miss my relationship with the Lord the being more certain of who I am in him and knowing he is on my side, and I know people say he didn't go anywhere.. I have always wanted to be right with him and do things his way I guess I just never realized that meant losing everything and becoming so empty inside. Thank you for your prayers and for listening may God bless you for lifting up a stranger. Sincerely, PMarie

Dear Pearl 8,
You have a very sweet spirit, thank you for the love of Jesus..Your prayers are welcome and I thank your mother also for her prayers as well. May God bless you and keep you and your family safe in his arms. May the love of Christ continue to flow through you and may you reach many hurting people with his help. God Bless you Sincerely, PMarie

Thankyou pmarie for you lovely responce. I will continue to keep you in my prayers and also pray that Jesus will give to you the gifts that will sustain you. God bless, pickles

Thank you Alejandrox for your prayers much gratitude...God bless you and I will also pray for you.. Sincerely, PMarie